Blackpill The blackpill made me go insane

[Mortis]

I think almost everyone here blocks out the actual reality of their situation most of the time. It's the same like when your body reaches a certain pain threshold and just shuts down making you unconscious because it has become unbearable on the brain.

Maybe I have a problem with this particularly because I have the tendency to dwell on things a long time and think about them constantly. For example I lost my creditcard recently and all I can think about is that fucking creditcard and where it might be.

The same thing with the blackpill. I genuinely go outside and only see genetic values and blackpills it has actually came to a point that I don't even enjoy my copes anymore. When I am eating I am dwelling on it when I am drunk I am dwelling on it when I am playing games I am dwelling on it.



It's like hamoudi said:

 

[Govid_Dorious]

 

[GeckoBus]

I think almost everyone here blocks out the actual reality of their situation most of the time. It's the same like when your body reaches a certain pain threshold and just shuts down making you unconscious because it has become unbearable on the brain.

Maybe I have a problem with this particularly because I have the tendency to dwell on things a long time and think about them constantly. For example I lost my creditcard recently and all I can think about is that fucking creditcard and where it might be.

The same thing with the blackpill. I genuinely go outside and only see genetic values and blackpills it has actually came to a point that I don't even enjoy my copes anymore. When I am eating I am dwelling on it when I am drunk I am dwelling on it when I am playing games I am dwelling on it.



It's like hamoudi said:
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yeah i also have that tendency to overthink and dwell on stuff endleslly
its becaues i have real autism
like shit just fucking kills me, if I miss one tiny thing, im going insane for weeks.
Even if it leaves my consciouss mind at some point, the process is still running subconciouslly. Like I will be standing in shower and suddenly my brain is like "you put the keys under the socks, thats why you cant find them for 3 weeks"
Also on the blackpill becoming an obessive interest. Same here. Its all I do, all day. Its been years at this point.

The thing is, unlike other obessions, this one actually is useful to a degree and helps you to navigate life better. So theres that upside.

 

[Mortis]

The thing is, unlike other obessions, this one actually is useful to a degree and helps you to navigate life better. So theres that upside.

Blackpill can definitely be a blessing in disguise if you let it be. But the reality sometimes is so brutal it overshadows the positive parts.

 

[parzurnacs]

Idc much, blackpill makes me feel good for knowing how things actually work in real life. Bluepill gives you hopium but the more hopium you consume the more painful reality's punch will be

 

[Cuckoja]

Eventually we will stop to care so much.

 

[Mortis]

Eventually we will stop to care so much.

Maybe it's because I am relatively new to the blackpill. Does it get "better" with time?

 

[PLA1092]

It'll make you saner in the long term, tbh. Imagine being a bluepiller constantly still stuck on the delusional mantras of "just be confident bro" and "just personality bro" day in and day out, constantly approaching foids and getting a look of disgust and a rejection. You'd probably go insane from constantly blaming yourself and finding out why exactly the flawless angels that are foids are rejecting you, even though you improved your personality and shower 5 times a day. At least you can accept it's not in your control and never was with the blackpill. You can stop with the humiliating and futile pursuits of foids.

 

[GeckoBus]

Blackpill can definitely be a blessing in disguise if you let it be. But the reality sometimes is so brutal it overshadows the positive parts.

i know but theres no going back at this point. Not that it was ever a choice.

Idc much, blackpill makes me feel good for knowing how things actually work in real life. Bluepill gives you hopium but the more hopium you consume the more painful reality's punch will be

giving people hope in this world is criminal imo, like do they seriously believe everyone can go from uber driver to NFL player if they just apply themselves? False hope is really one of the worst delusions you can have.

Maybe it's because I am relatively new to the blackpill. Does it get "better" with time?

Yes, it does. You get over the pain at some point. And then you only need a blackpill a day to keep your bearings.

 

[Cuckoja]

Maybe it's because I am relatively new to the blackpill. Does it get "better" with time?

I found out about blackpill 5 years ago. Most of the time I don't care much but sometimes hits me hard again.

 

[GeckoBus]

It'll make you saner in the long term, tbh. Imagine being a bluepiller constantly still stuck on the delusional mantras of "just be confident bro" and "just personality bro" day in and day out, constantly approaching foids and getting a look of disgust and a rejection. You'd probably go insane from constantly blaming yourself and finding out why exactly the flawless angels that are foids are rejecting you, even though you improved your personality and shower 5 times a day. At least you can accept it's not in your control and never was with the blackpill. You can stop with the humiliating and futile pursuits of foids.

and humiliating it is, by golly

 

[GeckoBus]

I found out about blackpill 5 years ago. Most of the time I don't care much but sometimes hits me hard again.

for me its going on 4 years. I feel the same

 

[Retardinator]

when I joined this forum I was unironically suicidal. Got over it but I'm still depressed, angry and frustrated and don't see much hope for my life

 

[Mortis]

giving people hope in this world is criminal imo, like do they seriously believe everyone can go from uber driver to NFL player if they just apply themselves? False hope is really one of the worst delusions you can have.

This is why I absolutely DESPISED teachers in elementary school telling you that you can be whatever you want. I always aspired for greatness. I wanted to be a lawyer, an astronomer, an archaeologist I always dreamed big but when you are sitting in high school and all of the sudden all the math on the blackboard turns into moon runes and that genetic wall hits. It's the most brutal feeling knowing your genetic potential never allowed for greatness. When I realised I'll never be a great man that single thought genuinely brought me to my knees.

 

[Mortis]

It'll make you saner in the long term, tbh. Imagine being a bluepiller constantly still stuck on the delusional mantras of "just be confident bro" and "just personality bro" day in and day out, constantly approaching foids and getting a look of disgust and a rejection. You'd probably go insane from constantly blaming yourself and finding out why exactly the flawless angels that are foids are rejecting you, even though you improved your personality and shower 5 times a day. At least you can accept it's not in your control and never was with the blackpill. You can stop with the humiliating and futile pursuits of foids.

I can't imagine being bluepilled. Definitely think the death counter on the bluepill is 10 times as high as that of the blackpill.

 

[GeckoBus]

when I joined this forum I was unironically suicidal. Got over it but I'm still depressed, angry and frustrated and don't see much hope for my life

same, this forum and blackpill saved my life. I was so close and it took a huge burden of my shoulders.
Blackpill saves lifes unironically.

This is why I absolutely DESPISED teachers in elementary school telling you that you can be whatever you want. I always aspired for greatness. I wanted to be a lawyer, an astronomer, an archaeologist I always dreamed big but when you are sitting in high school and all of the sudden all the math on the blackboard turns into moon runes and that genetic wall hits. It's the most brutal feeling knowing your genetic potential never allowed for greatness. When I realised I'll never be a great man that single thought genuinely brought me to my knees.

Lol yes. I also have huge issues with math. I cant even count 10 objects without loosing track. I am really really terrible at it. Like 4th grade level.
Maybe i have learn disablility related to maths or something.

But yeah, its fucked. For me, I was always giga autistic and trapped in my own little world. I didnt care about becoming anything. Only when everyone began threatening me with existential threats did I get scared and started caring. But I really only wanted peace and to live comfortably so I can go after my autistic copes.
But even that tiny wish was too much, as it turns out. Even if you want nothing, they will hound you to earths end.

It'll make you saner in the long term, tbh. Imagine being a bluepiller constantly still stuck on the delusional mantras of "just be confident bro" and "just personality bro" day in and day out, constantly approaching foids and getting a look of disgust and a rejection. You'd probably go insane from constantly blaming yourself and finding out why exactly the flawless angels that are foids are rejecting you, even though you improved your personality and shower 5 times a day. At least you can accept it's not in your control and never was with the blackpill. You can stop with the humiliating and futile pursuits of foids.

I can't imagine being bluepilled. Definitely think the death counter on the bluepill is 10 times as high as that of the blackpill.

Yes exactly.
The self blame was my biggest problem. I hated myself to such a degree, i literally thought i had schizophrenia from the negative self talk. My parents reinforced the idea that everything is my fault on a daily basis for decades. I was on the brink of going ER for real and at times carried a knife with me in school.

The blackpill took all of that way from me, it was an incredible relief, like nothing i ever experienced before. To finally be able to not blame yourself was shocking.

 

[Cletus Longthing]

I think almost everyone here blocks out the actual reality of their situation most of the time. It's the same like when your body reaches a certain pain threshold and just shuts down making you unconscious because it has become unbearable on the brain.

Maybe I have a problem with this particularly because I have the tendency to dwell on things a long time and think about them constantly. For example I lost my creditcard recently and all I can think about is that fucking creditcard and where it might be.

The same thing with the blackpill. I genuinely go outside and only see genetic values and blackpills it has actually came to a point that I don't even enjoy my copes anymore. When I am eating I am dwelling on it when I am drunk I am dwelling on it when I am playing games I am dwelling on it.



It's like hamoudi said:
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Its so over

 

[bimmercel]

yeah i also have that tendency to overthink and dwell on stuff endleslly
its becaues i have real autism
like shit just fucking kills me, if I miss one tiny thing, im going insane for weeks.
Even if it leaves my consciouss mind at some point, the process is still running subconciouslly. Like I will be standing in shower and suddenly my brain is like "you put the keys under the socks, thats why you cant find them for 3 weeks"
Also on the blackpill becoming an obessive interest. Same here. Its all I do, all day. Its been years at this point.

The thing is, unlike other obessions, this one actually is useful to a degree and helps you to navigate life better. So theres that upside.

 

[Moe Green]

I feel the same way. Often times I wish I was still bluepilled because disillusionment is so much more depressing.

Sometimes I think about the next generation of men that won’t have to deal with women’s shit because we will have robots that are almost as good if not better than replicants, and that makes me happy for them.

 

[osman27]

The solution is to de-blackPill yourself if it’s affecting you that much. @Mortis


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[AcidTrip]

The black pill isn’t meant to make you crazy, it’s to accept your defeat against society.

 

[Mortis]

The black pill isn’t meant to make you crazy, it’s to accept your defeat against society.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

That just means you weren't ready to accept the harsh reality of the blackpill.

 

[Glerforpus]

I genuinely go outside and only see genetic values and blackpills

Incel vision is real

 

[Forever Alone]

Maybe it's because I am relatively new to the blackpill. Does it get "better" with time?

For some it does, and for some it dont. There is not really an answer for this, we all deal different with this. I can only speak for myself, and i think i will never get happy in life. The blackpill will always stay in your mind.