Being on schizophrenic side isnt fun at all, meds cost a shit ton if youre not taking 1st gen drugs and insurance
Its absolute shit facing depersonalization and dissociation, avolition and ahedonia.
Being disorganized make you feel even more subhuman than you can be, saying random shit or just end up saying two words sentences while everyone looking at you, then your paranoia kicks in, afterward so do your full positive symptoms
Its not fun or romanticized like people make it, i dont have imaginary friends or even worst, multiple personaloties.
Its a storm in your head, not a slide to wonderland