In three weeks I hear back from someone/something whether I will proceed or not. I thought it was my chance to redeem myself and atone for myself, otherwise it's not worth living. No I don't see any other alternatives. I don't want to wait around to see just how much worse it can get. I often look around me and wish I just finished it off years ago. It's better to be dead than live long as a weak man getting weaker and weaker and more pathetic. People don't hold back to show they pity me, and then expect me to be thankful to them.
Of course I don't talk to thERapists about this. They're useless. All they care about is that you're employed and paying taxes. Also I never met a therapist who was fit and took care of themselves or had any sort of self respect, they were bluepilled incels themselves coping with themselves and trying to push copes on others.
Of course I don't talk to thERapists about this. They're useless. All they care about is that you're employed and paying taxes. Also I never met a therapist who was fit and took care of themselves or had any sort of self respect, they were bluepilled incels themselves coping with themselves and trying to push copes on others.
