Struggling to find a will to live

[DepressedNLonely]

Today marks exactly 2 and a half years since my mom died, ever since it happened, most days i feel like roping, and not only just because i cant find a girlfreind and i am incel, there is a lot of other reaasons why i feel this way, i have been depressed for years, but my mother was the only person who could bring me out of that, now she has been gone for so long and no one else understands me like she did, she used to tell me that i would find love and that i would make a girl happy someday and be a father etc etc, none of it has happened for me, i dont see the point in carrying on, it just feels like the stress of life gets greater and greater the older you get, and i feel like a failure in life

 

[Dolicocephalic]

And the worst part is that you cannot survive unless you force yourself to go out and compete for a decent job which pays enough for food utilities and rent. You need to still go out into the world just to survive, or risk collapsing into poverty and nonexistent quality of life.

 

[Blue Squirtle]

I'm in a similar position except my mom got addicted to drugs and left, everyone I was close to us gone, the best cope I've found is dark souls, I suggest you find a cope.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

There's no reason to live, life sucks.

 

[lurker45]

Sorry. Life is shit, the best thing you can do is try and find escapist hobbies to distract yourself.

 

[DepressedNLonely]

And the worst part is that you cannot survive unless you force yourself to go out and compete for a decent job which pays enough for food utilities and rent. You need to still go out into the world just to survive, or risk collapsing into poverty and nonexistent quality of life.

did i forget to mention i am also on the verge of becoming homeless as i lost my job at the grocery store and so now i cant pay my rent and am about to be kicked out my house, alcohol and weed are the only pasttimes i have these days

 

[NocturnalDecay]

Dude just drug dealermaxx; the meaning of life is pointless anyway might as well enjoy the time you have to the fullest.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

There's no reason to live, life sucks.

This. If i had a loaded gun I would not be here

 

[Deleted member 7448]

And the worst part is that you cannot survive unless you force yourself to go out and compete for a decent job which pays enough for food utilities and rent. You need to still go out into the world just to survive, or risk collapsing into poverty and nonexistent quality of life.

And you have to be grateful for that job too, despite that you sacrifice ~9 hours of your day just to get to and do that shit job that you hate, that pays just enough so you have nothing left over after bills.

 

[VST]

Today marks exactly 2 and a half years since my mom died, ever since it happened, most days i feel like roping, and not only just because i cant find a girlfreind and i am incel, there is a lot of other reaasons why i feel this way, i have been depressed for years, but my mother was the only person who could bring me out of that, now she has been gone for so long and no one else understands me like she did, she used to tell me that i would find love and that i would make a girl happy someday and be a father etc etc, none of it has happened for me, i dont see the point in carrying on, it just feels like the stress of life gets greater and greater the older you get, and i feel like a failure in life

My mom is the only reason I still try at life. I've promised myself that if I'm still incel when she passes away, I'm roping.
I'm not sure what to tell you as I can see myself ending up in your shoes in the future.