So, just to give some good amount of context, i'm currently at my old house. I lived here since I was born, all the way until I was 13. I have some good memories from this place, most of them are good tbh. But some are really miserable. This is the city in which I was rejected 3+ times, and it was here, in this very room, that I decided I wouldn't ever talk to a foid in order to try and get her attention again. I did try getting a foid's attention later, but... It was here it all started.
Here's a description of my physical appearance according to my own notions, and a friend's: 181cm tall (~5' 11"), 93kg (205lbs), face ~5/10 (some say it's more, some say it's less), ok/10 jawline (my friend says I have a chad-ish jawline, but I don't really think so tbh). I wear glasses like this:
and my hair is black,kinda long (hits my shoulders) and it's very wavy. Anyways...
As a child I was a very good looking boy. Really cute boy tbh. Being that good looking as a child made me think from a young age that... Well... I'd grow up to be a chad. My parents told me that, every adult I knew at the time told me so. And I went to school, and during the first year no girl in my classroom really drew my attention. Next year there was this cute girl (we were both 7 or something) and I really liked her. It was one of those "first love" things for me, and I really tried getting her attention until I got it. And that was the only time I was ever successful with a girl.
When I switched schools I was 10, and there was this very attractive girl (she's a model nowadays), and I really tried getting her to notice me. But I approaching puberty, and so I began looking subhuman. Also I started wearing glasses, and they really made me look ugly as hell. The girl one day told me "sorry Andy81Kaz, I like someone else, and I don't even know you to begin with". Well, she had a point. We never talked, but I was a child, and I didn't exactly know how relationships are supposed to start.
In that same school I tried getting attention from 2 other different girls. Nothing.
Finally middle school arrives. Girls developing boobs and shit, and some VERY buff boys at school. I had switched schools at the time. I was scared of that place tbh, everyone seemed savage to me. Anyways... I tried befriending the cute girl at my classroom. We talked sometimes, and I nurtured feelings for her. Well, she once hugged me, but never kissed me or anything. Instead... As I gave her chocolates and stuff... She was literally going out with a Chad mixed-race drug dealer who was 7 years older than her.
I then moved out of town. I was 13, and I went into yet another new school. There was this 1099839883/10 girl there, and I tried talking to her. She was cool and all, but I looked peak-subhuman at that time. My hair was weird and very curly, I was extremely fat, I was very short, and I had a weird voice. The bitch never gave me any attention besides talking to me sometimes.
Time goes by and I've really moved on. Then yesterday arrives. I go to the supermarket with my parent (i'm at my old house) and I see what I never thought I would have... I see that girl from middle school. I'm wearing a mask, and she's wearing a mask too, but I would recognize her anywhere. By her side was a gigachad, and I know she fucking recognized me. I was actually terrified. I literally forgot how to walk, and I quickly left the aisle, very clumsy. It was so fucking embarrassing and infuriating. I was afraid of walking around the market, and the whole time I was avoiding them.
That's all tbh.
Here's a description of my physical appearance according to my own notions, and a friend's: 181cm tall (~5' 11"), 93kg (205lbs), face ~5/10 (some say it's more, some say it's less), ok/10 jawline (my friend says I have a chad-ish jawline, but I don't really think so tbh). I wear glasses like this:
As a child I was a very good looking boy. Really cute boy tbh. Being that good looking as a child made me think from a young age that... Well... I'd grow up to be a chad. My parents told me that, every adult I knew at the time told me so. And I went to school, and during the first year no girl in my classroom really drew my attention. Next year there was this cute girl (we were both 7 or something) and I really liked her. It was one of those "first love" things for me, and I really tried getting her attention until I got it. And that was the only time I was ever successful with a girl.
When I switched schools I was 10, and there was this very attractive girl (she's a model nowadays), and I really tried getting her to notice me. But I approaching puberty, and so I began looking subhuman. Also I started wearing glasses, and they really made me look ugly as hell. The girl one day told me "sorry Andy81Kaz, I like someone else, and I don't even know you to begin with". Well, she had a point. We never talked, but I was a child, and I didn't exactly know how relationships are supposed to start.
In that same school I tried getting attention from 2 other different girls. Nothing.
Finally middle school arrives. Girls developing boobs and shit, and some VERY buff boys at school. I had switched schools at the time. I was scared of that place tbh, everyone seemed savage to me. Anyways... I tried befriending the cute girl at my classroom. We talked sometimes, and I nurtured feelings for her. Well, she once hugged me, but never kissed me or anything. Instead... As I gave her chocolates and stuff... She was literally going out with a Chad mixed-race drug dealer who was 7 years older than her.
I then moved out of town. I was 13, and I went into yet another new school. There was this 1099839883/10 girl there, and I tried talking to her. She was cool and all, but I looked peak-subhuman at that time. My hair was weird and very curly, I was extremely fat, I was very short, and I had a weird voice. The bitch never gave me any attention besides talking to me sometimes.
Time goes by and I've really moved on. Then yesterday arrives. I go to the supermarket with my parent (i'm at my old house) and I see what I never thought I would have... I see that girl from middle school. I'm wearing a mask, and she's wearing a mask too, but I would recognize her anywhere. By her side was a gigachad, and I know she fucking recognized me. I was actually terrified. I literally forgot how to walk, and I quickly left the aisle, very clumsy. It was so fucking embarrassing and infuriating. I was afraid of walking around the market, and the whole time I was avoiding them.
That's all tbh.
