Story Story of a very depressive time in my life

[Ellsworth]

This is a story of one of the most depressed eras of my life. I had just ended a somewhat good era of living with my friends in our own apartment. When that ended I moved back into my parents apartment. A shit apartment with subhumans and niggers as neighbors, mind you.

I had been at my job for about 2 years or so and hated it so I decided to quit. This wouldn’t turn out to be a huge mistake as the job market was shit and it would take me a long time to get my next job. (Technically I had a part time doing security on the side but it was super scarce hours).

Anyway my day just consisted of lying in bed and going downstairs to watch tv after mom and dad went to work. Around lunch time I would scrape together $4.00 and walk to Taco Bell. This was the highlight of my day. Then it was back home to rot until night time around 10pm, then I would usually walk down to the convenience store to buy a Mt.Dew and some nachos if I was lucky enough to have the cash.

I don’t remember a lot, just that I was very depressed and would often glance to the corner of the room with the closet that housed my shotgun. I would just think about how life was more pain than pleasure and I could just end it. Obviously I never did but thought of it a lot.

Eventually I found a full time job and was able to get my own place again and improve my situation.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

wow, $4 at food at taco bell, that would never fill me up.

 

[Fat Link]

View: https://youtu.be/voa_SvvI3zY

 

[Tenshi]

lifemogs me

 

[coldmachinery]

wow, $4 at food at taco bell, that would never fill me up.

fucking burgers always pricemog me

 

[Incline]

Everybody has lows in their life. The lowest point for me was after another day of hellcucking at some minimum pay job I finally broke down at home and just cried silently since I did not want my neighbors to hear. I fell down to the floor and cried my eyes out questioning if my life will ever improve. Then I just did not bother to get up. I would just raise my hand up to the ceiling pretending I was grabbing my dream which was forever out of reach.

I stayed on that floor for the next 2 days without moving. I did not eat anything. Strangely I wasn't even all that hungry at the time tbh. I would just stare at the ceiling and think about life and why the fuck it's such hell for me. Why the fuck was my entire life just an endless string of misery.

I died that day. Hence my existence became far more tolerable ever since then. But I guess a part of me is still there somewhere. I hope I will find myself.

 

[Ellsworth]

wow, $4 at food at taco bell, that would never fill me up.

This was around 2008 so it was cheaper and with the value menu I could get quite full.

Everybody has lows in their life. The lowest point for me was after another day of hellcucking at some minimum pay job I finally broke down at home and just cried silently since I did not want my neighbors to hear. I fell down to the floor and cried my eyes out questioning if my life will ever improve. Then I just did not bother to get up. I would just raise my hand up to the ceiling pretending I was grabbing my dream which was forever out of reach.

I stayed on that floor for the next 2 days without moving. I did not eat anything. Strangely I wasn't even all that hungry at the time tbh. I would just stare at the ceiling and think about life and why the fuck it's such hell for me. Why the fuck was my entire life just an endless string of misery.

I died that day. Hence my existence became far more tolerable ever since then. But I guess a part of me is still there somewhere. I hope I will find myself.

Deep and relatable.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

This was around 2008 so it was cheaper and with the value menu I could get quite full.

I don't remember the prices of things back then, so maybe.

fucking burgers always pricemog me

the inflationpill destroyed me

 

[Emba]

I wish i had a shotgun, to sell....