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Idk, watching myself decay in real time has been an… experience. Making fun of women rapes, acting like Jm angry at my mom (i’m not really- this is just how sober me rants all the time to get anger out, our relationship is okay, we fight slot, a lot), taking our a lot of rage.
One on hand, I feel like i’m getting revenge. I feel like i’m getting revenge for all of IT making fun of me for being a sexually inexperienced male. Or all the women who make fun of guys below 6’0”
But then, I feel like I go to far. I’m not really like this irl. I’m very quiet, scared most of the time, and just drink, study, and play video games. I suffer with mega massive intrusive thoughts and get enraged and rage baited very easy. So everytime i see some femoid saying some rage bait shit i get massively enraged and this forum is where i come to dump all it out and then i calm down.
I don’t want to hurt anyone. I just don’t want to die alone. That’s it. Anyway, I go outside and see all kinds of dudes with girlfriends. Just last week I saw nyideal type in a girl with someone who was like 5’8” cutcel. I was drunk so it enraged me. I didn’t do anything. Just kept to myself. Even watching ckaviculars stream, all men in clubs, talking to women are normies. Maybe i’m just meant to die a kiseless handholdhless hugless virgin. Idk. I’m pushing 22 and haven’t talked to a girl since HS in a group project.
Anyway, I’m very intoxicated rn. So excuse me. I’ll probably wake up, and post something unhinged again .
One on hand, I feel like i’m getting revenge. I feel like i’m getting revenge for all of IT making fun of me for being a sexually inexperienced male. Or all the women who make fun of guys below 6’0”
But then, I feel like I go to far. I’m not really like this irl. I’m very quiet, scared most of the time, and just drink, study, and play video games. I suffer with mega massive intrusive thoughts and get enraged and rage baited very easy. So everytime i see some femoid saying some rage bait shit i get massively enraged and this forum is where i come to dump all it out and then i calm down.
I don’t want to hurt anyone. I just don’t want to die alone. That’s it. Anyway, I go outside and see all kinds of dudes with girlfriends. Just last week I saw nyideal type in a girl with someone who was like 5’8” cutcel. I was drunk so it enraged me. I didn’t do anything. Just kept to myself. Even watching ckaviculars stream, all men in clubs, talking to women are normies. Maybe i’m just meant to die a kiseless handholdhless hugless virgin. Idk. I’m pushing 22 and haven’t talked to a girl since HS in a group project.
Anyway, I’m very intoxicated rn. So excuse me. I’ll probably wake up, and post something unhinged again .
