Sometimes I wish I wasn't blackpilled

[cycleless]

Like the bad guy from The Matrix movie, sometimes I wish I didn't take the blackpill.

I miss being blissfully ignorant from the truth about women and how society works in general. I miss waking up and having a fake sense of positivity. Even though my life hasn't changed at all, the idea of something happening someday was enough for me to go through days feeling positive.

Now that I know how humans work, everyday is filled with deep nihilism and displeasure of people. But I still can't shake the loneliness off even though I dislike being around people. It's a bad cycle.

On top of being a friendless khhv, it also doesn't help that my family is slowly tearing apart. It feels like I don't know the people that birthed me.

I'm trying hard to not lose my sanity everyday, but it gets harder by the hour.

 

[HotDogCel]

the blackpill still hits u one way or another

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Bluepill can also hurt if you expect things to go different with the lies they feed you, but nothing changes at the end of the road. thats real pain too

 

[DeathSigil]

It's better to know the cruel truth then to live in sweet lies.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

Just remove my conscience at this point

 

[FuckYou]

There are many incels who are bluepilled but it doesn’t make things any easier, only worse. Although they may be simps and feminists, I still feel terrible for bluepilled incels.

Also:

the blackpill still hits u one way or another

 

[Icarus]

My family is slowly tearing apart. It feels like I don't know the people that birthed me.

Same brocel