You ever get that feeling that you wish you were born into some other reality or time line? Even to be born some normie retard? Just completely simple minded. Be forced to fight and die in something you have no control over. Ill sit on my porch smoking cigarettes thinking what if i was some shit head farm kid that got drafted. Having your life amount to absolutely nothing. How is it any different? Fighting for something you care nothing about or dying over the bp and accepting the reality that its over. Listening to the end by the doors right now just thinking maybe it would've been better if i didnt smoke my brain away and stayed a normcel retard. Or was born earlier and suffer. Sometimes i think being blown up in a war or coming back home like rambo when he goes back to the farm in last blood.
