Venting Sometimes I still wonder how tf I am still alive

[Tenshi]

I am not kidding, the amount of humiliation, rejection, and negative reinforcement I have received to this day is insane, when I stop to think about it is when I actually realize holy shit, that is just brutal.

My ego is almost destroyed. The average person can't even fathom what this is like, it's so surreal. You literally go to the point of seeing yourself as nothing, totally worthless. Not only because of some warped perception, but all your life experiences actually telling you so. You don't think you're nothing, but you know you are.

People have dreams, things they enjoy, things they don't like, hopes etc. I have nothing.

I just had this epiphany the other day, I don't even react normally when people treat me like shit, I just expect it because being treated like shit is the default for me lol my mind don't even feel I deserve decency and respect. In fact, it may not even care anymore. I'm numb...

 

[Idotms]

your vital organs are working fine

 

[Deleted member 33893]

You should live just so you can piss people off and mess with them. There is nothing else to live for as an incel but vengence.

Personally what drives me on is a hope of a future civil war in which I will be able to do as I please. Would be cool if I could join another country's civil war and have fun there but I would most likely be arrested on return home besides there are no cool civil wars right now.

 

[Black Soul]

My Condolences

 

[WawelDragon1683]

i dont even notice when people bully me cause its normal for me. when people are nice i get suspicious cause i assume they are trying to fuck with me.

 

[BrazilianLiveMatter]

i dont even notice when people bully me cause its normal for me. when people are nice i get suspicious cause i assume they are trying to fuck with me.

I wouldn't trust someone who is really nice to me

 

[AllanKing]

terrible life has lasted for more than one decade，wondering what it will turn out eventually

 

[Deleted member 17883]

Because you're a pussy ass nigga

Don't worry . we all are.

 

[mentally lost cel 1]

I am not kidding, the amount of humiliation, rejection, and negative reinforcement I have received to this day is insane, when I stop to think about it is when I actually realize holy shit, that is just brutal.

Yep me too, people still do most awful things they can but I just keep going, sometimes my heart seriously aches cuz of the evil I’m facing but I’m still fucking alive, I’m one of the strongest man on earth

I am not kidding, the amount of humiliation, rejection, and negative reinforcement I have received to this day is insane, when I stop to think about it is when I actually realize holy shit, that is just brutal.

My ego is almost destroyed. The average person can't even fathom what this is like, it's so surreal. You literally go to the point of seeing yourself as nothing, totally worthless. Not only because of some warped perception, but all your life experiences actually telling you so. You don't think you're nothing, but you know you are.

People have dreams, things they enjoy, things they don't like, hopes etc. I have nothing.

I just had this epiphany the other day, I don't even react normally when people treat me like shit, I just expect it because being treated like shit is the default for me lol my mind don't even feel I deserve decency and respect. In fact, it may not even care anymore. I'm numb...

Aside from the fact that I’m still alive, none of this, surprises me

 

[Mecoja]

Even as high inhib sometimes im millimeters away from ending it all, my entire life from the beginning is a living hell, inceldom is just a fraction of it.

 

[Emba]

HAVE you taken the decadepill?

(More of the same. For decades?)

If not...

Well...

You better get used to it

 

[Remaincel]

What moves me is hate one day I will get revenge

 

[Deleted member 34301]

I'm so amazed that people on this site report such strikingly similar experiences to my own, while all normies gaslighted me and acted like this didn't exist.

 

[Tenshi]

HAVE you taken the decadepill?

(More of the same. For decades?)

If not...

Well...

You better get used to it

that shit terrifies me


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMAB3r6EjcM

I'm so amazed that people on this site report such strikingly similar experiences to my own, while all normies gaslighted me and acted like this didn't exist.

exactly

how can all the things we have been talking about, even backing with science, be so relatable to so many people from totally different cultures yet with extremely similar kind of anecdotes? yet bluepillers will deny it

 

[Deleted member 35476]

Me too bro, i know how you feel. I was literally treated worse than dogshit since the day i was born

 

[Deleted member 17245]

It will never get better.

 

[Deleted member 29230]

What moves me is hate one day I will get revenge

 

[Pain And Hatred]

It will never get better.

brutal truth pill