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So I'm ugly in the standout way that gets me actively noticed by people so I get weirded out stares all the time from all ages and genders, ill just be chilling between sets and normies will just shoot me creeped out glares from across the gym, but one thing that REALLY pisses me off and I'm talking makes me go full on ER mode is that a few of the gym foids seem to really stare at me when I'm talking with my brother who sometimes goes gym at the same time as me, I'll be standing there talking to him and I'll notice these fucking bitches just staring at me whilst I'm taking
Idk why tf they do it, maybe it's because they're freaked that I can actually talk like a normal person and it gives them uncanny valley or they're observing to see if I do anything weird which confirms their initial perception of me being some kind of freak (which they formed literally based off of just my appearance btw) but either way it genuinely enrages me beyond fucking belief, the stares already piss me off but when they especially stare at me when I'm talking to my brother it really sends me into psychotic rage
It's not just when I talk to my brother either, whenever some dude comes up to me to ask how many sets I have left or vice versa these fucking bitches eyes immediately lock onto me like they're studying how im gunna act or something and because I'm so aware of them observing me I stumble over my words and shit, one time I said to someone "I'm actually on my last set" instead of just saying one more set like a normal human and I had to repeat myself because they couldn't hear me, it's fucking brutal
If I had to guess why they do this it's probably the same psychological mechanism as being weirded out if you saw the local crazy crackhead who yells at nothing in the street suddenly one day wearing a tuxedo and standing with a bunch of other smart looking people having a normal conversation with them, it just doesn't compute in these fucking normscums brains and it short circuits them, because they've already seen your subhuman face and immediately decided that you're not normal so seeing you in a normal situation or seeing someone else treat you like normal (asking how many sets you have left) just really makes them feel some type of way
Genuinely close to the edge at this point idk how long it is before I log onto Minecraft and find the address of one of these foids and throw a feather filled cinder block through their living room window
Idk why tf they do it, maybe it's because they're freaked that I can actually talk like a normal person and it gives them uncanny valley or they're observing to see if I do anything weird which confirms their initial perception of me being some kind of freak (which they formed literally based off of just my appearance btw) but either way it genuinely enrages me beyond fucking belief, the stares already piss me off but when they especially stare at me when I'm talking to my brother it really sends me into psychotic rage
It's not just when I talk to my brother either, whenever some dude comes up to me to ask how many sets I have left or vice versa these fucking bitches eyes immediately lock onto me like they're studying how im gunna act or something and because I'm so aware of them observing me I stumble over my words and shit, one time I said to someone "I'm actually on my last set" instead of just saying one more set like a normal human and I had to repeat myself because they couldn't hear me, it's fucking brutal
If I had to guess why they do this it's probably the same psychological mechanism as being weirded out if you saw the local crazy crackhead who yells at nothing in the street suddenly one day wearing a tuxedo and standing with a bunch of other smart looking people having a normal conversation with them, it just doesn't compute in these fucking normscums brains and it short circuits them, because they've already seen your subhuman face and immediately decided that you're not normal so seeing you in a normal situation or seeing someone else treat you like normal (asking how many sets you have left) just really makes them feel some type of way
Genuinely close to the edge at this point idk how long it is before I log onto Minecraft and find the address of one of these foids and throw a feather filled cinder block through their living room window
