I can't fake a smile.
I give 0 fucks about other people because I only see them as meaningless NPCs.
they all bore me. interacting with people is suffering for me.
I can do simple interactions like buying groceries, but anything else
like hangouts/ watching TV is beyond what I can do.
IG its because I always view the world 4 dimensionally.
I don't see any advantage interacting with people IRL. I won't learn anything, I won't get a female to skinship with.
I don't want to think about what to talk about to avoid the silence, I prefer to be alone.
it makes me very uncomfortable when someone smiles at me. because its like they obligate me to smile back and because I can't they take it as hatred, while its just contempt.
I used to some what be normal and function in society, but it required the illusion of hope, and wonder, which are long gone.
rejection by rejection I became what I am.
I give 0 fucks about other people because I only see them as meaningless NPCs.
they all bore me. interacting with people is suffering for me.
I can do simple interactions like buying groceries, but anything else
like hangouts/ watching TV is beyond what I can do.
IG its because I always view the world 4 dimensionally.
I don't see any advantage interacting with people IRL. I won't learn anything, I won't get a female to skinship with.
I don't want to think about what to talk about to avoid the silence, I prefer to be alone.
it makes me very uncomfortable when someone smiles at me. because its like they obligate me to smile back and because I can't they take it as hatred, while its just contempt.
I used to some what be normal and function in society, but it required the illusion of hope, and wonder, which are long gone.
rejection by rejection I became what I am.
