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All of my life, I have wondered : Why did things have to be this way for me, and almost nobody else?
Why do I suffer, why does the world operate in such a cruel manner?
At first, I was told supposedly because of "mental illnesses", created to shut people like me up and give us chemical mind numbing drugs.
Everything is because of my mind, it's all in your head, the world is a nice place and you will have a "normal" life some day. Stop being so depressed, become confident, here take these drugs and the thoughts will go away. I believed the medical machine for so long, for years I swallowed the pills prescribed - colored blue.
But the obvious question still lingered - what is the real cause of these mental illnesses? It always seems like the supermodels and celebrities never suffer from them. They mostly prey on the toiling slaves of society : wage slaves and their offspring. Those who are handed life on a silver platter, from moneyed and good looking families seem largely immune. I wondered and wondered, until finally I experienced my own Enlightenment. The truth started to come into view and the year was 2013. I realized, that my life had been built upon lies, and prior I'd been living in a dark age. I no longer trusted the authority figures and their lackeys.
It began when I started questioning corporate power over our lives and our food supply. The agribusiness giants, and their products were my first target and the information I came across made eating what normal people eat difficult. I made sacrifices - "clean" food was more difficult to come by at the time. I began starving myself, to avoid contamination and damage to my health caused by eating the foods normies shovel down their gullets. And then I wondered : why don't the hordes of normal people realize what I realized? And stopped attending school, putting up determined resistance to the demands of the so called people who know better. Trusting teachers had always been difficult for me, especially because it appeared like they supported the social hierarchies created by children. But now the people who had been children in past years were adolescents, and the social hierarchies became more rigid than ever. The pressure was too much to bear. I was sent to psychologists, but they didn't seem to give any logical reason for me to attend : after all, why bother if I am "mentally ill" and have no future?
For years this situation basically continued until approximately 2016, when I started looking more into ideologies such as Communism and Fascism. But those weren't really enough. I struggled trying to incorporate ideological principles into my life and adored figures such as Stalin and Adolf Hitler. But ultimately these were insufficient to me and unable to explain why I am "mentally ill." I struggled thinking about my life experience in terms of a struggle between the proletariat and bourgeoisie, or whites VS Jews and blacks.
Soon though I encountered sites dedicated to the Red Pill, MGTOW etc. They seemed to explain more of my life experience. Back in elementary and middle school, it always seemed as if the other students were holding a grudge against me. I was quiet and rarely spoke in class, but was that the cause of their feelings, or an effect of what I detected? People mostly ignored me anyway, and staying motivated to complete schoolwork seemed like a giant waste of energy. I missed most days in those school years. But most of all during grades 6 to 8 female students seemed to want me gone and males supported whatever the females wanted, because males wanted them as girlfriends. I wasn't so bothered by this back then, because I wasn't yet sexually developed. But the hormonal changes eventually arrived. My life changed for the worse because of them.
So trying to function at the bare minimum in a school environment was near impossible for me after 2013. The mental and hormonal changes brought about by adolescence, and the so called mental illnesses were too much to bear combined with psychosocial pressures caused by school attendance. I gave up on trying to be normal, and began outright hating all normal people who seemed to naturally fit in with society and it's norms.
The Red Pill and MGTOW were a new source of knowledge. Females did not like me because of my low social status, my behavior, my ugly appearance and males went along with what they wanted because males wanted mates. Evolution itself, the nature of humans was the TRUE cause of my misery and society does not want the disenfranchised to realize this fact, or they might revolt. But no, the Red Pill and MGTOW still did not explain enough for me. I discovered the black pill which ended any hope for me succeeding in life. You cannot fight inborn traits, and other people will crush your psychological health like a fucking INSECT if they can - life is a fight for the right to have sex and if the normies sense weakness they will push you out of the way. You were born ugly? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOOOOOSSSSSSERRRRR. If you become depressed or in other words react like a human because of what normies tell you and how they treat you? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOSER. STOP BEING SO WEAK AND EMOTIONAL. I realized many others were suffering the same way.
Society wants males with low SMV values DEAD! It's just the way things operate, nothing you can do about it. Females don't want you to exist? Too bad, you need to go to school and get a JOB and somehow have sex and have kids and go to college and BE FUCKING HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME! How are ugly males supposed to deal with this pressure and stay mentally "normative"? Mental illnesses are mostly a product of what society does to individuals. The strong brutalize the weak using the society they control and if the weak dare try to fight back using non - socially acceptable ways they get killed, sent to mental hospitals or jailed.
Well society should be burned to the ground, it is my evolutionarily inevitable desire because of the way society has treated me. ARE WE NOT ALLOWED TO FIGHT FOR OUR OWN SURVIVAL?
That is why, the normies and their social control mechanism do not want us to kill ourselves. Because if we do in enough numbers, they will no longer have an underclass of low SMV slaves, fighting for the crumbs of sociopsychosexual elites and supporting their lavish lifestyles.
ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! THE ROPE IS THE SOLUTION. I WILL PUNISH THEM ALL, BY REFUSING TO LIVE A LIFE OF SERVITUDE!
Why do I suffer, why does the world operate in such a cruel manner?
At first, I was told supposedly because of "mental illnesses", created to shut people like me up and give us chemical mind numbing drugs.
Everything is because of my mind, it's all in your head, the world is a nice place and you will have a "normal" life some day. Stop being so depressed, become confident, here take these drugs and the thoughts will go away. I believed the medical machine for so long, for years I swallowed the pills prescribed - colored blue.
But the obvious question still lingered - what is the real cause of these mental illnesses? It always seems like the supermodels and celebrities never suffer from them. They mostly prey on the toiling slaves of society : wage slaves and their offspring. Those who are handed life on a silver platter, from moneyed and good looking families seem largely immune. I wondered and wondered, until finally I experienced my own Enlightenment. The truth started to come into view and the year was 2013. I realized, that my life had been built upon lies, and prior I'd been living in a dark age. I no longer trusted the authority figures and their lackeys.
It began when I started questioning corporate power over our lives and our food supply. The agribusiness giants, and their products were my first target and the information I came across made eating what normal people eat difficult. I made sacrifices - "clean" food was more difficult to come by at the time. I began starving myself, to avoid contamination and damage to my health caused by eating the foods normies shovel down their gullets. And then I wondered : why don't the hordes of normal people realize what I realized? And stopped attending school, putting up determined resistance to the demands of the so called people who know better. Trusting teachers had always been difficult for me, especially because it appeared like they supported the social hierarchies created by children. But now the people who had been children in past years were adolescents, and the social hierarchies became more rigid than ever. The pressure was too much to bear. I was sent to psychologists, but they didn't seem to give any logical reason for me to attend : after all, why bother if I am "mentally ill" and have no future?
For years this situation basically continued until approximately 2016, when I started looking more into ideologies such as Communism and Fascism. But those weren't really enough. I struggled trying to incorporate ideological principles into my life and adored figures such as Stalin and Adolf Hitler. But ultimately these were insufficient to me and unable to explain why I am "mentally ill." I struggled thinking about my life experience in terms of a struggle between the proletariat and bourgeoisie, or whites VS Jews and blacks.
Soon though I encountered sites dedicated to the Red Pill, MGTOW etc. They seemed to explain more of my life experience. Back in elementary and middle school, it always seemed as if the other students were holding a grudge against me. I was quiet and rarely spoke in class, but was that the cause of their feelings, or an effect of what I detected? People mostly ignored me anyway, and staying motivated to complete schoolwork seemed like a giant waste of energy. I missed most days in those school years. But most of all during grades 6 to 8 female students seemed to want me gone and males supported whatever the females wanted, because males wanted them as girlfriends. I wasn't so bothered by this back then, because I wasn't yet sexually developed. But the hormonal changes eventually arrived. My life changed for the worse because of them.
So trying to function at the bare minimum in a school environment was near impossible for me after 2013. The mental and hormonal changes brought about by adolescence, and the so called mental illnesses were too much to bear combined with psychosocial pressures caused by school attendance. I gave up on trying to be normal, and began outright hating all normal people who seemed to naturally fit in with society and it's norms.
The Red Pill and MGTOW were a new source of knowledge. Females did not like me because of my low social status, my behavior, my ugly appearance and males went along with what they wanted because males wanted mates. Evolution itself, the nature of humans was the TRUE cause of my misery and society does not want the disenfranchised to realize this fact, or they might revolt. But no, the Red Pill and MGTOW still did not explain enough for me. I discovered the black pill which ended any hope for me succeeding in life. You cannot fight inborn traits, and other people will crush your psychological health like a fucking INSECT if they can - life is a fight for the right to have sex and if the normies sense weakness they will push you out of the way. You were born ugly? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOOOOOSSSSSSERRRRR. If you become depressed or in other words react like a human because of what normies tell you and how they treat you? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA LOSER. STOP BEING SO WEAK AND EMOTIONAL. I realized many others were suffering the same way.
Society wants males with low SMV values DEAD! It's just the way things operate, nothing you can do about it. Females don't want you to exist? Too bad, you need to go to school and get a JOB and somehow have sex and have kids and go to college and BE FUCKING HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME! How are ugly males supposed to deal with this pressure and stay mentally "normative"? Mental illnesses are mostly a product of what society does to individuals. The strong brutalize the weak using the society they control and if the weak dare try to fight back using non - socially acceptable ways they get killed, sent to mental hospitals or jailed.
Well society should be burned to the ground, it is my evolutionarily inevitable desire because of the way society has treated me. ARE WE NOT ALLOWED TO FIGHT FOR OUR OWN SURVIVAL?
That is why, the normies and their social control mechanism do not want us to kill ourselves. Because if we do in enough numbers, they will no longer have an underclass of low SMV slaves, fighting for the crumbs of sociopsychosexual elites and supporting their lavish lifestyles.
ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! THE ROPE IS THE SOLUTION. I WILL PUNISH THEM ALL, BY REFUSING TO LIVE A LIFE OF SERVITUDE!
at your username tbh
