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"You are still young!" - no, I am not. In the past people had settled down with families and bought houses while I am still studying and rotting at home (am in the early 20s). Today the point of maturity/adulthood gets raised and raised.
People in their 30s say that they are still young and not ready for responsibility now. They still party, fuck, travel around the world and flee from responsibilities like teenagers. And even if I was young (which I am not) I don't feel young - I feel burned out, have no interest in anything and am generally speaking so fucking tired of this world.
"Youth" gets used in such an inflationary and exculpating manner nowadays while in the past literal teenagers used machine guns on the fronts of the world wars - nowadays 30-year-old chads/women behave like fucking misbegotten children.
How much I hate the word "Youth" in general and how much I hate teenagers and every symbol of youth/fun/etc. Whenever I see them having fun I feel like I want to vomit bile. Whenever I see a teenager passing by me with his bike I unironically feel aching pain and in the summer where they graduate from high school usually and drive around in groups it's the most potent suicidefuel. Looking at them in the summer feels like a knife being pushed into my thorax and then being twisted around inside of it. They fuck, drink, etc. while having not a single worry in the world fully enjoying the beauty of the night sky and the good air on the fields with a GF that loves them while I masturbated, played video games and hung around on the Internet.
And another thing: Aging with dignity is an oxymoron and it only gets harder with age, you see more and more doors close in front of you and recongise the irreversibility of everything - also time passes faster and faster, something that will cause extreme despair once you realize how limited your time is. And the demands of women also only increase because they then know what they want (even more).
People in their 30s say that they are still young and not ready for responsibility now. They still party, fuck, travel around the world and flee from responsibilities like teenagers. And even if I was young (which I am not) I don't feel young - I feel burned out, have no interest in anything and am generally speaking so fucking tired of this world.
"Youth" gets used in such an inflationary and exculpating manner nowadays while in the past literal teenagers used machine guns on the fronts of the world wars - nowadays 30-year-old chads/women behave like fucking misbegotten children.
How much I hate the word "Youth" in general and how much I hate teenagers and every symbol of youth/fun/etc. Whenever I see them having fun I feel like I want to vomit bile. Whenever I see a teenager passing by me with his bike I unironically feel aching pain and in the summer where they graduate from high school usually and drive around in groups it's the most potent suicidefuel. Looking at them in the summer feels like a knife being pushed into my thorax and then being twisted around inside of it. They fuck, drink, etc. while having not a single worry in the world fully enjoying the beauty of the night sky and the good air on the fields with a GF that loves them while I masturbated, played video games and hung around on the Internet.
And another thing: Aging with dignity is an oxymoron and it only gets harder with age, you see more and more doors close in front of you and recongise the irreversibility of everything - also time passes faster and faster, something that will cause extreme despair once you realize how limited your time is. And the demands of women also only increase because they then know what they want (even more).