I'm sure I will still receive many 'fakecel' comments.
But because these didn't progress into any romantic experience, I don't think it'll be against the rules for me to write about it.
Maybe it's the nofap or the extreme loneliness I feel at school that's been making me ruminate nonstop about moments in the past that could have led to my ascension.
But due to a combination of high-inhib, lack of awareness, and unlucky timing, I missed these opportunities that could have completely changed my life trajectory.
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Freshman year of high school:
I already discussed in previous thread the time a childhood friend (8/10 rice noodle) stayed at my house for a week and confessed her crush on me to my sister. I fantasized daily about fucking her but didn't know she also liked me back. She was in an unstable household (violent and abusive step-mother) and was conflicted over her dad, who was trying to save his new marriage instead of taking the side of his daughter. Imagine how it would feel to fuck that prime JB pussy and be the only male figure in her life one to comfort her. My parents were also very close with her dad, and all of them have somewhat jokingly tried to arrange a marriage between us since we were kids.
Sophomore year of high school:
A girl in my band class (3/10 face, 5/10 body, SEA noodle) started to make up excuses like needing help on algebra so she could sit next to me and chat me up. During one of our band trips, she made an effort to bump into me as we were going around the theme park in between our performances. She even called me randomly over a summer asking about our summer reading assignments. It was so obvious that she wanted to hang out and 'study together' but I was legit oblivious at the time. I ended up ignoring her advances like an autist and eventually she gave up. By the time I realized my mistakes and developed an interest in her, it was already too late.
Freshman year of college:
I was a pianist and accompanied a violinist (petite 5/10 noodle with a tight body). After I graduated and was talking with one of my classmates I used to play League with, he said that apparently this girl told him that I had rejected her. Which still confuses me to this day because I don't remember her ever asking me out or making any romantic advances towards me. I had a shitty Windows Phone at the time so maybe I somehow missed a text or message.
All those hours we spent together alone in the practice rooms, sneeking glances at her tight ass, and I didn't make a single move.
Junior year of college:
I was having hotpot with a group of rices, and one of the Chang-lites invited some foids to join us. There was a noodle that kept trying to talk to me and ask me questions. She was super fit, 7/10 overall. She was wearing these tight leggings and I couldn't keep my eyes off the outline of her pussy whenever she stood up. A few weeks later, my Chang-lite friend asked me if that noodle had ever contacted me over break. Apparently, she told him that I was 'cute' but since I had 0 social media she wasn't able to find me.
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Now I'm a virgin about to turn 25. Foids my age have locked down Chads or betabuxx and are getting married, and most are already starting to show their age. I am an outcast in my program and have no social circle. Even the people I have tried to reach out to eventually find out how much of a loser I am and then distance themselves from me and stop inviting me to events. I've lost most of my inhib these days, but what's the use now. I've always been behind the curve, figuring out things too late. I didn't realize how important it was to capitalize on opportunities. I didn't realize how few and how fleeting those chances could be.
It's truly over for me.
But because these didn't progress into any romantic experience, I don't think it'll be against the rules for me to write about it.
Maybe it's the nofap or the extreme loneliness I feel at school that's been making me ruminate nonstop about moments in the past that could have led to my ascension.
But due to a combination of high-inhib, lack of awareness, and unlucky timing, I missed these opportunities that could have completely changed my life trajectory.
//
Freshman year of high school:
I already discussed in previous thread the time a childhood friend (8/10 rice noodle) stayed at my house for a week and confessed her crush on me to my sister. I fantasized daily about fucking her but didn't know she also liked me back. She was in an unstable household (violent and abusive step-mother) and was conflicted over her dad, who was trying to save his new marriage instead of taking the side of his daughter. Imagine how it would feel to fuck that prime JB pussy and be the only male figure in her life one to comfort her. My parents were also very close with her dad, and all of them have somewhat jokingly tried to arrange a marriage between us since we were kids.
Sophomore year of high school:
A girl in my band class (3/10 face, 5/10 body, SEA noodle) started to make up excuses like needing help on algebra so she could sit next to me and chat me up. During one of our band trips, she made an effort to bump into me as we were going around the theme park in between our performances. She even called me randomly over a summer asking about our summer reading assignments. It was so obvious that she wanted to hang out and 'study together' but I was legit oblivious at the time. I ended up ignoring her advances like an autist and eventually she gave up. By the time I realized my mistakes and developed an interest in her, it was already too late.
Freshman year of college:
I was a pianist and accompanied a violinist (petite 5/10 noodle with a tight body). After I graduated and was talking with one of my classmates I used to play League with, he said that apparently this girl told him that I had rejected her. Which still confuses me to this day because I don't remember her ever asking me out or making any romantic advances towards me. I had a shitty Windows Phone at the time so maybe I somehow missed a text or message.
All those hours we spent together alone in the practice rooms, sneeking glances at her tight ass, and I didn't make a single move.
Junior year of college:
I was having hotpot with a group of rices, and one of the Chang-lites invited some foids to join us. There was a noodle that kept trying to talk to me and ask me questions. She was super fit, 7/10 overall. She was wearing these tight leggings and I couldn't keep my eyes off the outline of her pussy whenever she stood up. A few weeks later, my Chang-lite friend asked me if that noodle had ever contacted me over break. Apparently, she told him that I was 'cute' but since I had 0 social media she wasn't able to find me.
//
Now I'm a virgin about to turn 25. Foids my age have locked down Chads or betabuxx and are getting married, and most are already starting to show their age. I am an outcast in my program and have no social circle. Even the people I have tried to reach out to eventually find out how much of a loser I am and then distance themselves from me and stop inviting me to events. I've lost most of my inhib these days, but what's the use now. I've always been behind the curve, figuring out things too late. I didn't realize how important it was to capitalize on opportunities. I didn't realize how few and how fleeting those chances could be.
It's truly over for me.
