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willystroker
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I would sleep every hour of the day if I could. Imagine being someone like Elon Musk who only sleeps like 4 hours a day because so much is going on in his life that sleep is a waste of time to him.
I only briefly experienced it one time when I was developing a video game. I was so focused on it I'd spend every waking hour working on it, only once I could no longer hold my eyes open would I collapse on the floor. Then I'd wake up and, despite still being tired, jolt up and get right back to it. It was incredible having a reason to get up in the morning.
Now there is nothing. I have no autistic passions like that anymore. Nor do I have a cookie cutter normalfag life to look forward to. Every time I wake up I ask myself "I'm still alive? Fucking why?" and try to go back to sleep. Only when it's time for work do I finally get up. On the weekend I'll sleep until my head hurts. Sleep is the only reprieve from this world. Death is the only true escape.
I only briefly experienced it one time when I was developing a video game. I was so focused on it I'd spend every waking hour working on it, only once I could no longer hold my eyes open would I collapse on the floor. Then I'd wake up and, despite still being tired, jolt up and get right back to it. It was incredible having a reason to get up in the morning.
Now there is nothing. I have no autistic passions like that anymore. Nor do I have a cookie cutter normalfag life to look forward to. Every time I wake up I ask myself "I'm still alive? Fucking why?" and try to go back to sleep. Only when it's time for work do I finally get up. On the weekend I'll sleep until my head hurts. Sleep is the only reprieve from this world. Death is the only true escape.