Serious Sleep, Snowstorm, School

[Giracel]

It's been another sleepless night after waking up halfway through the day Friday, so I couldn't sleep last night. I took a certain caffeine gum that I have and am just going to stay up the whole day now. I'm being affected by the large snowstorm and the entire outside is white. I should be cuddling a cute hapa girlfriend in my bed relaxing underneath the covers and doing sketchy stuff with each other… but such things are off limits.

Instead I am going to be focusing on school. My first week back has already been extremely demoralizing, and I was losing my ability to believe that any of it still mattered since it is my last semester. But I have realized that if I give up now, I could never live with myself, just one semester of reasonably-good grades away from getting highest honors. I'm aware I will look like this clip I keep referencing, but at least I will have the status and that is something they can never take away from me.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uW0_C8FqVGg

 

[Giracel]

I may have to start becoming less active but I hope I can find the time to keep posting

 

[ItsOverMan]

There's a snow/ice storm here today.

 

[Dcel]

what are you going to school for

 

[Giracel]

what are you going to school for

STEM but idk what will happen after… parents want med school but you can probably guess how I feel about that

I'll let them believe I'm doing it though in order to secure another couple years of NEETdom, as they have stated they would allow me to move back in free of charge if I am "preparing" for it

Actually getting the distinction I have described is very important, if for no other reason, the ability to have an ace up my sleeve in disagreements. I've already shut down criticisms on multiple occasions simply by referencing my 4.0 and this would make that argument even stronger

 

[Dcel]

STEM but idk what will happen after… parents want med school but you can probably guess how I feel about that

I'll let them believe I'm doing it though in order to secure another couple years of NEETdom, as they have stated they would allow me to move back in free of charge if I am "preparing" for it

Actually getting the distinction I have described is very important, if for no other reason, the ability to have an ace up my sleeve in disagreements. I've already shut down criticisms on multiple occasions simply by referencing my 4.0 and this would make that argument even stronger

so you dont have a solid plan? thats brutal

 

[The Wolf]

I like snowstorms/snowfall. Favorite weather.

 

[Giracel]

so you dont have a solid plan? thats brutal

I was only good at science in the esoteric autist way, not the practical world-changer way. It's not my fault.

I should add: why the fuck would I care about bettering society when I am denied basic female companionship? Certainly not, I am no machine.

 

[Giracel]

I like snowstorms/snowfall. Favorite weather.

It reminds me of my loneliness but I also prefer it to spring/summer and seeing the suifuel couples

 

[Dcel]

I was only good at science in the esoteric autist way, not the practical world-changer way. It's not my fault.

I should add: why the fuck would I care about bettering society when I am denied basic female companionship? Certainly not, I am no machine.

i plan on wageslaving while living with my mom, eventually buying a trailer home so i dont have to pay rent and own something for myself, its not much but its the best someone like me could do

 

[The Wolf]

It reminds me of my loneliness but I also prefer it to spring/summer and seeing the suifuel couples

Good points. Although in a weird way, any kind of weather reminds me of loneliness just in different ways the warm spring, hot summer, or gray, foggy fall, or any rainy type of weather (cozy I guess?). I feel like this now at 30, as I did for the past 15 years.

 

[poorenglishcel]

lmao what is it with white people asking their children for rent XD

 

[Poopless One]

Foid character avi

 

[Caichan]

Foid character avi

He explained the situation

 

[Poopless One]

He explained the situation

Where?

 

[Giracel]

He explained the situation

Here I believe: https://incels.is/threads/past-pfp-archive.832533/

Btw thanks, I'm sick of people having an issue with it, as if it's any worse than the countless anime pfps