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It's been about three months or so since I had this beautiful sleep paralysis where an angelic female spirit with the most adorable and gorgeous voice I've ever heard was talking and singing in my ears and inside my head. I was sleeping on the couch and I couldn't move but I didn't care at all cuz my entire body felt like I was floating in the clouds and my attention was completely stolen by this lovely girl. I can barely remember what she was saying then but it was all nonsensical and childish, her voice felt like something straight out of heaven, it resonated throughout my brain leaving me in a state of trance, I loved every single second of it all.
The first thing I did right after I woke up was to thank my subconscious (yes I do talk to my subconscious mind every once in a while even tho it never answers) and I begged for another experience like that. Recently I've been forcing myself to stay awake for long periods of time (since I'm more likely to have a sleep paralysis when I'm sleep deprived) but to no avail.
I've tried lucid dreaming in the past but it takes too much time and dedication to really master the skills and the results aren't that good tbh, the dreams don't last long and I'm never able to fuck in peace because there's always a monster or some shit interrupting my business, it also happens that the foid I'm fucking turns into a monster and stuff like that so it ends up killing my boner JFL. That's why I gave up on lucid dreaming years ago, but I still have them in rare occasions as well as sleep paralysis (which I always enjoy even when they're "scary and twisted"). The problem is that I can't take this spirit girl out of my mind, I desire to hear her voice once again, I want her so much!!
YOU GODDAMN SUBCONSCIOUS FUCK GIVE ME ANOTHER SLEEP PARALYSIS YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!
I found this picture today, it reminds me of her even tho I never saw her cuz my eyes are always closed during a SP
The first thing I did right after I woke up was to thank my subconscious (yes I do talk to my subconscious mind every once in a while even tho it never answers) and I begged for another experience like that. Recently I've been forcing myself to stay awake for long periods of time (since I'm more likely to have a sleep paralysis when I'm sleep deprived) but to no avail.
I've tried lucid dreaming in the past but it takes too much time and dedication to really master the skills and the results aren't that good tbh, the dreams don't last long and I'm never able to fuck in peace because there's always a monster or some shit interrupting my business, it also happens that the foid I'm fucking turns into a monster and stuff like that so it ends up killing my boner JFL. That's why I gave up on lucid dreaming years ago, but I still have them in rare occasions as well as sleep paralysis (which I always enjoy even when they're "scary and twisted"). The problem is that I can't take this spirit girl out of my mind, I desire to hear her voice once again, I want her so much!!
YOU GODDAMN SUBCONSCIOUS FUCK GIVE ME ANOTHER SLEEP PARALYSIS YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!!
I found this picture today, it reminds me of her even tho I never saw her cuz my eyes are always closed during a SP