AshamedVirgin34
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- Nov 4, 2022
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They can say they have worked on themselves or whatever, but they will never remotely understand how it was like for me to go through all these years of intense sadness and confusion about women, sex and romance, because at the end of the day they know what to improve, they will never know how it feels like to trully don't know what's the fucking missing piece of the puzzle, until you realize there wasn't a piece of a puzzle, you were confused all this time, women just like men who are more attractive than you, you don't have what it takes to be an option for them.
I don't have what it takes to belong to that universe, to the universe of normal, sane people, I'll always be in the shadows, seeing how others live the life that I don't have access to.
I strongly dislike people who have sex, if you have sex, I strongly dislike you, all this years of confussion are just not fair, this inequal and unchanging, RIGGED situation will never be fair, they can say it's fair, but it's not, they only say that to feel good about themselves.
I've always hated when everyone knows something I don't, I hate how I'm always the last person to realize what's happening, to know what's on the news, people seem to hide me things, and when it comes to sex, I hate not knowing a lot of normal things I should already know at my age, I hate not knowing the basics of having a relationship, the movements in sex, even how to kiss, I didn't know sexhavers kiss before getting laid until recently, I thought they just went straight to it, I thought that because porn is the only access I have to all the knowledge about sex I will never ever have. I was left behind in life, my life experiences are like the life experiences of a 14yo kid, I won't ever get any better. How I'm not supposed to get offended at sexhavers? How I'm not supposed to get offended at this inequality of experience?
I feel I just want to give up on life, I'm feeling I'm beginning to care less about my life, I don't care about my achievements, I don't care about my wellbeing, I used to have dreams when I was little, but now, I don't find motivation or reason to have a purpose.
I don't have what it takes to belong to that universe, to the universe of normal, sane people, I'll always be in the shadows, seeing how others live the life that I don't have access to.
I strongly dislike people who have sex, if you have sex, I strongly dislike you, all this years of confussion are just not fair, this inequal and unchanging, RIGGED situation will never be fair, they can say it's fair, but it's not, they only say that to feel good about themselves.
I've always hated when everyone knows something I don't, I hate how I'm always the last person to realize what's happening, to know what's on the news, people seem to hide me things, and when it comes to sex, I hate not knowing a lot of normal things I should already know at my age, I hate not knowing the basics of having a relationship, the movements in sex, even how to kiss, I didn't know sexhavers kiss before getting laid until recently, I thought they just went straight to it, I thought that because porn is the only access I have to all the knowledge about sex I will never ever have. I was left behind in life, my life experiences are like the life experiences of a 14yo kid, I won't ever get any better. How I'm not supposed to get offended at sexhavers? How I'm not supposed to get offended at this inequality of experience?
I feel I just want to give up on life, I'm feeling I'm beginning to care less about my life, I don't care about my achievements, I don't care about my wellbeing, I used to have dreams when I was little, but now, I don't find motivation or reason to have a purpose.
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