[Serious] What personality disorder do you have

[incelgration]

So I was diagnosed with Borderline PD, rare in males much more common in females. My mood can switch in a minutes from good to suicidal, I was cutting myself in high school, already had suicide attempt, using drugs to dull my emotional pain and doing other impulsive shit. When I was around 20 I just said to myself I had enough these mood swings so I will actively work on not feeling. In few years I became empty shell of myself and had first depressive episode. I did not really recovered from that, just barely enough to work again. Then I went abroad to work, after 1.5 years I had second episode of depression, much worse than first, has been 4 times in psych ward (including one time after intentional overdose), resigned from my job and went back to my home country. Soon I will go to therapy for 6 months specialized in treating personality disorders. This is my last chance to have more or less normal life, if it will not help me I will off myself.

And what is yours personality disorder?

 

[Weed]

Tfw no personality disorder

 

[SupremeG]

I have Aspergers which includes the Antisocial personality disorder for sure.

Borderline is a typical female personality.

 

[Deleted member 2798]

As a teenager, I had a foid therapist who would always make reference to how level-headed I was. She was still, for whatever reason, a pill-pusher despite not being able to identify anything wrong with me. When I was a kid, there were several school counselors tasked with finding an issue with me who always came up blank; I never even got slapped with a complimentary ADHD diagnosis. I can't wear anything as a mentalcel badge, but I suspect that I have Avoidant Personality Disorder. There was never really any attempt made to look this far into things on the part of the quacks with which I dealt (my private thoughts have never been held before the prurient curiosity of others), but the description fits me well. I am still incredibly reluctant to be around other people and I hate dragging what should be private (everything) before the idiot gaze of the public. If I have to talk to someone, I don't want anyone else to hear it. I always had a tendency to slack through sports rather than be maligned with making an effort for unremarkable results. I don't want to say anything more than I need to and, even if I wanted to, I couldn't. I always hated "new things" where my competence wasn't immediately assured. All of these feelings are, of course, amplified by being put up alone against a fundamentally hostile world. The grip upon my nerves does loosen with time spent among others and I'm sure that if conditions weren't uniquely unfavorable to me, for whatever reason, and if I had a stable position in the outside world, it could be surmounted easily enough.

 

[Deleted member 8884]

Avoidant..jfl at my life can't even talk to people on the internet.

 

[San Salvador]

Where do psychotic disorders fall under?

 

[Juxtaposition6]

'Zoid.
"Disorder" yeah right, prefering to spend time alone and not having a million fucking friends is a disorder.

As a teenager, I had a foid therapist who would always make reference to how level-headed I was. She was still, for whatever reason, a pill-pusher despite not being able to identify anything wrong with me. When I was a kid, there were several school counselors tasked with finding an issue with me who always came up blank; I never even got slapped with a complimentary ADHD diagnosis. I can't wear anything as a mentalcel badge, but I suspect that I have Avoidant Personality Disorder. There was never really any attempt made to look this far into things on the part of the quacks with which I dealt (my private thoughts have never been held before the prurient curiosity of others), but the description fits me well. I am still incredibly reluctant to be around other people and I hate dragging what should be private (everything) before the idiot gaze of the public. If I have to talk to someone, I don't want anyone else to hear it. I always had a tendency to slack through sports rather than be maligned with making an effort for unremarkable results. I don't want to say anything more than I need to and, even if I wanted to, I couldn't. I always hated "new things" where my competence wasn't immediately assured. All of these feelings are, of course, amplified by being put up alone against a fundamentally hostile world. The grip upon my nerves does loosen with time spent among others and I'm sure that if conditions weren't uniquely unfavorable to me, for whatever reason, and if I had a stable position in the outside world, it could be surmounted easily enough.

Here is, crudely put, the difference:
-avoidant= wants relationships with people but can't
-schizoid= doesn't want relationships with people regardless of ability to create such

 

[Lebensmüder]

ADHD and some comorbidities (BPD)- my first diagnosis. After some minor offences (disruptive behaviour, brawls, insults, damages to school property, autoaggressive behaviour) I had to visit psychiatrists, some speculated that I suffered from Antisocial Personality Disorder, others said that I suffered from Asperger Syndrome (the latter is complete bullshit).

 

[kvn]

Avoidant..jfl at my life can't even talk to people on the internet.

6 messages in 3 months here. Jfl you are right

 

[Kirito3]

So I was diagnosed with Borderline PD, rare in males much more common in females. My mood can switch in a minutes from good to suicidal, I was cutting myself in high school, already had suicide attempt, using drugs to dull my emotional pain and doing other impulsive shit. When I was around 20 I just said to myself I had enough these mood swings so I will actively work on not feeling. In few years I became empty shell of myself and had first depressive episode. I did not really recovered from that, just barely enough to work again. Then I went abroad to work, after 1.5 years I had second episode of depression, much worse than first, has been 4 times in psych ward (including one time after intentional overdose), resigned from my job and went back to my home country. Soon I will go to therapy for 6 months specialized in treating personality disorders. This is my last chance to have more or less normal life, if it will not help me I will off myself.

And what is yours personality disorder?

Ugliness

 

[fiveeightcel]

I also have BPD

 

[Deleted member 2798]

Avoidant..jfl at my life can't even talk to people on the internet.

I was the same way before I became a regular here. This is the first forum I've ever posted on. The last time I made a Facebook status was at 15.

Here is, crudely put, the difference:
-avoidant= wants relationships with people but can't
-schizoid= doesn't want relationships with people regardless of ability to create such

Changed to the latter, Schizoid seems a much better descriptor with this distinction in mind.

 

[oldcellcopecell]

I'm not diagnosed because I don't want the diagnosis and I strongly dislike therapists and their "stare".

Maybe you can help figure it out.

I think I am schizoid and avoidant and maybe BPD too.

Maybe avoidant more than schizo.

Edit: Read the description, then I am avoidant and not schizoid.

 

[Konon]

I'm very narcissistic tbh. Have done some whore online tests that told me I was almost a 100% covert narcissist. I guess that is my only cope.

 

[LoneWanderer]

While BPD might be cute in anime (Tsundere), in real life it's absolute hell. Especially if you're a guy, which is rare. I myself have schizotypal personality disorder.

 

[Deleted member 8884]

I was the same way before I became a regular here. This is the first forum I've ever posted on. The last time I made a Facebook status was at 15.


Changed to the latter, Schizoid seems a much better descriptor with this distinction in mind.

How did you improve? Every time I attempt a relationship (which is rare) it always ends in failure. Either on my part or they just end up rejecting me probably because they can pick up something is wrong with me. I really want to improve but it is extremely difficult.

 

[oldcellcopecell]

How did you improve? Every time I attempt a relationship (which is rare) it always ends in failure. Either on my part or they just end up rejecting me probably because they can pick up something is wrong with me. I really want to improve but it is extremely difficult.

I'd like to know that too.

 

[Deleted member 1410]

funny, everyone was saying Borderline was a female only disorder. I have it. I guess I was wrong. but also along with Narcissism, Paranoia, Antisocial, OCD + Bipolar and Autism. I LOVE BEING PSYCHOTIC.

 

[Deleted member 6101]

Pretty sure I have schizoidism (if it can even be considered a proper disorder) since I literally fit 100% of the symptoms and a 2nd year psychologyfag I know "diagnosed" me with it some months ago.

 

[Deleted member 2798]

How did you improve? Every time I attempt a relationship (which is rare) it always ends in failure. Either on my part or they just end up rejecting me probably because they can pick up something is wrong with me. I really want to improve but it is extremely difficult.

I'd like to know that too.

I can't really recommend anything but exposure, which as I know all too well, is hard to get after years of isolation; more of an end itself than a means to one. But I can say that this forum was a big part of pulling me some of the way out. I guarantee that I would still be a KHHV if I hadn't started posting here, if only due to being driven toward the world outside of my head.

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Due to site rules, I can't discuss my experience with foids in great detail. But I will say that my avoidance did hold me back and continues to do so. I actively tried to normiemax when I first got Tinder and it worked pretty well. After a while, though, I got impatient and sick of having to deal with foids. I just started spamming generic openers and questions to a portion of my new matches after a several day collection period. Even when it worked, I would still be very inhibited and couldn't think of enough to say that would last me more than a few dates, as in one case where a foid told me, "I think you're a really nice guy but we're so different that I don't see this working as a romantic relationship" (could have been because I'm too ugly, but then why everything leading up to that?) I seem to be pretty well matched with the one I'm with now, but I only hope I can stay "engaged" long enough to pull something off.

Only thing I could say is to actively try to socialize yourself and don't get too distant (the symptoms get a lot worse after several days alone).

 

[Just_another_cel]

I don't know about males with BPD but females with it should kill themselves immediately.