I remember when I was in uni at the end of 2022 before dropping out, I was very depressed at that time because I had to wake up at 5:30 AM and had to walk 2 hours daily, so being in such a low mood got me into philosophy. Being the only one in a 60 person class that didn't talk to nobody was also depressing.
I started ignoring my degree and started reading philosophy essays about pessimism and stuff and very much got into it. That just made me more depressed and more misanthropic person than before, and I found a spanish blackpill pessimism channel whose name I won't say here for respecting the channel owner who voluntarily deleted the channel.
I still was bluepilled, because I hated men and women equally because I've had horrible experiences with both.
Until one day, when I was in the train and everybody was standing due to seats being full, there was a 30 year old foid messaging with another foid at my left. I felt low inhib so I started reading her phone while they talked and boy oh boy.
This foid talked about how she was fucking a man at his job and when the other foid asked her about how was it she wrote that he was very ugly and short but she did it because she was bored.
She started to talk about how this guy was so in love with her and didn't stop messaging her a lot and they started sending normie laugh emojis and more messages mocking him.
The last thing I read before she noticed I was watching her phone and moved to another place was that she would give him hope because she wanted sex until she found another guy, also that she didn't enjoy sex because his dick wasn't very big.
At the bottom of my heart I still thought that foids were wonderful but then I realized that this is the average foid. If you have ever been rejected by a girl you liked a lot and tried to be "friends" with, this is what she really thinks of you. If you had a oneitis you were an ugly clown to her all along.
After this I started getting slowly more close to blackpill thinking until one day I found IncelTV channel and after that this forum.
I started ignoring my degree and started reading philosophy essays about pessimism and stuff and very much got into it. That just made me more depressed and more misanthropic person than before, and I found a spanish blackpill pessimism channel whose name I won't say here for respecting the channel owner who voluntarily deleted the channel.
I still was bluepilled, because I hated men and women equally because I've had horrible experiences with both.
Until one day, when I was in the train and everybody was standing due to seats being full, there was a 30 year old foid messaging with another foid at my left. I felt low inhib so I started reading her phone while they talked and boy oh boy.
This foid talked about how she was fucking a man at his job and when the other foid asked her about how was it she wrote that he was very ugly and short but she did it because she was bored.
She started to talk about how this guy was so in love with her and didn't stop messaging her a lot and they started sending normie laugh emojis and more messages mocking him.
The last thing I read before she noticed I was watching her phone and moved to another place was that she would give him hope because she wanted sex until she found another guy, also that she didn't enjoy sex because his dick wasn't very big.
At the bottom of my heart I still thought that foids were wonderful but then I realized that this is the average foid. If you have ever been rejected by a girl you liked a lot and tried to be "friends" with, this is what she really thinks of you. If you had a oneitis you were an ugly clown to her all along.
After this I started getting slowly more close to blackpill thinking until one day I found IncelTV channel and after that this forum.
