I will start to wear my best outfits/dress really nice when I’m in college I’ll try to attend parties (even though I hate party lifestyle) and be more sociable I’ll try anything I can to not be viewed as an outcast or weird kid. Highschool was a terrible time for me and made me anti social I hate all the people in my town except the only friend I have and family hopefully it will go better for me in college in this other town near me. I also quit weed because it’s very degenerate and gay I only use nicotine now and I’m not a drinker. Though I may need to drink at social events to boost my confidence. Most interactions I’ve had in life were mostly negative or me being the butt of the joke which led me out of my class clown personality and made me anti social during puberty. I may also try to hit the gym again and do more skincare. I’ve always gotten good grades because I was never a dumb person but I saw all the obnoxious jocks and football players only got the bare minimum grades to not fail and their lives were much better than mine overall which thinking back on it made me feel jealous. I feel as if the genetically gifted people put less effort in life than in contrast to intelligent gentleman like myself which is not fair. The smarter people should be treated better not just the people who fit in it or “look good”.
