I'm in the middle of a spiritual war zone. I can't get out and there's constant push back against me from everyone. I have catatonic behaviours although I know I'm not catatonic. It physically and mentally hurts to speak with anyone or have people speak to me, ask me questions or pry. It's exhausting, but I have to just stay in this. I won't go into detail what it's about and the spiritual war ongoing, but I need to air my frustration. I will never get out of this psychosis, I know that, but I want some relief. I'm trying hard to be patient and seeking out spiritually higher people like myself, but it's not gonna be easy and it might take some time. I know there are people like me out there because my only (schizophrenic) friend is on the same spiritual mission as myself. Last night a demon mocked me and tried to convince me people not accepting me is a reason for me to give up, but I know they're just trying to fuck with me. I believe the same demon tried to invade me last night, but an angel saved me. God is with me every step of the way, He's deeply embedded into my soul and protects me through this journey. I know this and it keeps me going, along with the fact that I must complete this mission. My psych team asked me if my mission was related to religious extremism and in a way it is. My mission is religious and extreme, but it has absolutely nothing to do with harming PEOPLE, it's the complete opposite. I'll save you all, not alone, but I will. The demons convinced me to step on a needle that went deep into my foot, but I know God will protect me. I just need to stay true and holy. That's all. Praise God and God bless. 
