Venting Schizo Post: Is this all just a set up to fuck with me?

[Icarus]

It's way too thought out to be unharmonious.

Every little gag that is thrown in the center.

It's one thing to the next, and endless things are never changing.

What can I look forward to?

This feels like one drawn out eternal play.

To give about and ask to be, a worn out drown about and see.

 

[Rick prime]

Yes correct

 

[zd60]

That's exactly how it is

 

[Icarus]

Yes correct

Okay cool just checking

 

[Icarus]

That's exactly how it is

I got in a mind loop of repeating the same thing over and over again.

 

[Rick prime]

Talk to your walls like me

 

[Rick prime]

Maybe we can talk to each other by speaking to our walls

 

[zd60]

I got in a mind loop of repeating the same thing over and over again.

I do that a lot, almost every single day

 

[Icarus]

Talk to your walls like me

Maybe we can talk to each other by speaking to our walls

The walls are growing

 

[Icarus]

I do that a lot, almost every single day

Man it gets lonely

 

[Rick prime]

The walls are growing

Let us speak to each other via paths

 

[zd60]

Man it gets lonely

that's what the drugs are for to silence that and let my numb mind wander freely

 

[Icarus]

The walls are growing

View: https://youtu.be/BU05vpn_OsA?si=ouyXbobjwDdXKgrA

 

[Icarus]

Let us speak to each other via paths

The walls keep growing

 

[Icarus]

that's what the drugs are for to silence that and let my numb mind wander freely

an idle mind is the devil's playground

 

[zd60]

an idle mind is the devil's playground

man I already feel like i'm trapped inside the devils asshole i'm sures he's already used my mind as a playground

 

[Fallen-Angel]

Nice avi

 

[Fallen-Angel]

I got in a mind loop of repeating the same thing over and over again.

I experience the same stuff but I have OCD

 

[Icarus]

man I already feel like i'm trapped inside the devils asshole i'm sures he's already used my mind as a playground

Same brother

It never seems to end.

 

[Icarus]

Nice avi

Thanks brocel

I like yours too

 

[Icarus]

I experience the same stuff but I have OCD

Unironically what it is

 

[zd60]

Same brother

It never seems to end.

Day after day i'm starting to think it may never end, even after death

 

[Icarus]

Day after day i'm starting to think it may never end, even after death

 

[Fallen-Angel]

Day after day i'm starting to think it may never end, even after death

You may google about quantum immortality out of boredom. It is exactly about that. Shitty theory but may scare someone.

 

[TooSomething]

Yes

 

[zd60]

You may google about quantum immortality out of boredom. It is exactly about that. Shitty theory but may scare someone.

yeah i've stumbled upon it before not a fan myself doesn't scare me just annoying if it happens to be real

 

[Hoor Al-Ayn]

Yes correct

 

[Icarus]

yeah i've stumbled upon it before not a fan myself doesn't scare me just annoying if it happens to be real

I saw this one NDE video online where the guy went to heaven and the "angels" were laughing at him. Very interesting when looking at it through a gnostic frame of mind.

 

[Icarus]

I saw this one NDE video online where the guy went to heaven and the "angels" were laughing at him. Very interesting when looking at it through a gnostic frame of mind.

The dude was some boomer who was absolutely clueless.

 

[zd60]

I saw this one NDE video online where the guy went to heaven and the "angels" were laughing at him. Very interesting when looking at it through a gnostic frame of mind.

honestly think i've probably seen the same video, i watch those NDE videos quite often its funny to hear what some people same, some are a bit more realistic than others I think

 

[zd60]

The dude was some boomer who was absolutely clueless.

sounds similar to the one i seen

 

[Icarus]

honestly think i've probably seen the same video, i watch those NDE videos quite often its funny to hear what some people same, some are a bit more realistic than others I think

I just hope it's somewhat better then this. I mean I'm thankful to have you guys as my frens, but really outside of this site I have nothing. Me and my families relationship is stained at best

 

[Icarus]

sounds similar to the one i seen

If I find it I'll post it back here. Really stuck out to me. I'm sure I'd be waiting for the curtain to be drawn.

 

[zd60]

I just hope it's somewhat better then this. I mean I'm thankful to have you guys as my frens, but really outside of this site I have nothing. Me and my families relationship is stained at best

I feel the same, outside of this site there is literally nothing for me really, my mother and I rarely speak and the rest of my family avoids and hates me and with no friends I've just always spent my life in isolation, hopefully what's next is better but I have a strong feeling it won't be

 

[zd60]

If I find it I'll post it back here. Really stuck out to me. I'm sure I'd be waiting for the curtain to be drawn.

Okay brocel, good luck finding it there's so many of those videos out there I struggle finding the exact video i've watched in the past especially when I watch like 400 hours of content a month if not more

 

[Icarus]

I feel the same, outside of this site there is literally nothing for me really, my mother and I rarely speak and the rest of my family avoids and hates me and with no friends I've just always spent my life in isolation, hopefully what's next is better but I have a strong feeling it won't be

Same brocel. Spoken truthfully.

 

[Fallen-Angel]

I just hope it's somewhat better then this. I mean I'm thankful to have you guys as my frens, but really outside of this site I have nothing. Me and my families relationship is stained at best

I simply use my family for sleep (that is, I live with them) and free food. Never loved them and their death would scare me only because I'm not ready for independence now.

Never had any normal, good interaction with people IRL and I speak to someone only online (short interactions with random people without any goals).

Never had friends etc and honestly I doubt I'm able to get attached to someone etc etc. I also try to not pay attention if someone's talking IRL. I simply accept I'm different from all people I'm surrounded by.

 

[Icarus]

Okay brocel, good luck finding it there's so many of those videos out there I struggle finding the exact video i've watched in the past especially when I watch like 400 hours of content a month if not more

I found it

View: https://youtu.be/EJSUAmR-I1o?si=SzQVq2_Tf8D5hCgL

 

[Icarus]

I simply use my family for sleep (that is, I live with them) and free food. Never loved them and their death would scare me only because I'm not ready for independence now.

Never had any normal, good interaction with people IRL and I speak to someone only online (short interactions with random people without any goals).

Never had friends etc and honestly I doubt I'm able to get attached to someone etc etc. I also try to not pay attention if someone's talking IRL. I simply accept I'm different from all people I'm surrounded by.

Very similar to my own as well. At times we get along, but every day feels like another battle that I have to face.

 

[zd60]

I found it

View: https://youtu.be/EJSUAmR-I1o?si=SzQVq2_Tf8D5hCgL

I'm glad you found it, not quite the same guy but ima give it a watch because I have nothing better to do besides drink, smoke and consume content

 

[zd60]

I found it

View: https://youtu.be/EJSUAmR-I1o?si=SzQVq2_Tf8D5hCgL

was a interesting watch, all these NDE's though seem to follow the same sort of story though, maybe one day i'll experience one

 

[Icarus]

I'm glad you found it, not quite the same guy but ima give it a watch because I have nothing better to do besides drink, smoke and consume content

Thanks brocel

 

[Icarus]

was a interesting watch, all these NDE's though seem to follow the same sort of story though, maybe one day i'll experience one

Yeah I don't trust any of them. Even the channels themselves are very strange.

 

[zd60]

Yeah I don't trust any of them. Even the channels themselves are very strange.

Yeah, I kind of treat them as just neat little stories to listen to so time passes by some of them are more interesting than others youtube randomly reccomends me random shit all the time that watch and I ended up down the NDE rabbit hole a couple times

 

[Icarus]

Yeah, I kind of treat them as just neat little stories to listen to so time passes by some of them are more interesting than others youtube randomly reccomends me random shit all the time that watch and I ended up down the NDE rabbit hole a couple times

Have you ever looked into gnosticism? It's the only likelihood I can think of in terms of an explanation on why we're here.

 

[zd60]

Have you ever looked into gnosticism? It's the only likelihood I can think of in terms of an explanation on why we're here.

no I've heard some things in passing but never really looked directly into it. is it worth it?

 

[glizzymcguire]

That's how I feel all the time. Just some cruel joke for some invisible higher power to laugh at. Seeing how much I can take before I kill myself

 

[Icarus]

no I've heard some things in passing but never really looked directly into it. is it worth it?

Definitely man

 

[Icarus]

That's how I feel all the time. Just some cruel joke for some invisible higher power to laugh at. Seeing how much I can take before I kill myself

It's fucking brutal man

 

[zd60]

Definitely man

i'll have to spend some time looking into it