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Experiment Saw my first escort

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So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
 
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At the end of the day, you're simply paying a foid to exist and proliferate her degeneracy; I can see how it wouldn't result in much enjoyment... :feelsjuice:

Though I can obviously see it as a cope of sorts; brutal how subhumans are simply expected to deal with all of what you say and not criticize or go against the state of hypergamy and foid's standards, or the bluepilled hegemony currently puppeteering everything we do, say, and see. :feelsclown:
 
How did the pussy taste? Like tuna?
 
How old was the slut?
 
What ED does to a mf.
 
Congrats on losing your virginity! I enjoyed the read. I remember you from a while ago dude you were straight chilling, where have you been?

Yeah my first time was kinda similar in that I didn't really feel too much. I came but I had to have her jerk me off. It's not because of the lack of love. If you are able to jerk yourself off to orgasm, that doesn't require love. Normies always say to not expect much for your first time. I once knew this black normie that was on my high school's football team and we were talking about sex and he said his first time he didn't cum.

You probably got used to jerking yourself off to porn after being an incel for so long. Having sex is a completely different thing. It's different positions and you have to actually put effort in instead of laying down doing nothing but jerking off. BPP (pbuh) said his first time he got a leg cramp. Also pussy and mouth isn't as tight as your hand.

Don't let this experience discourage you. Once you get used to fucking it feels a lot better. I'm a million times better at it compared to when I first started. If anything you can just force her to fuck doggystyle because when she squeezes her legs together like that it makes her pussy tighter.
 
If he's able to jerk himself off to orgasm he doesn't have ED
I have ED and still can. ED doesnt mean your dick wont work it means decreased erections, sensations, and libido.
 
Seeing escorts has been a major disappointment, it feels so transactional, you pay a lot of money just for an hour of sex in a public establishment and you have to leave as soon as the time is up

With a gf you still have to pay her bills, but at least there is no time limit and you can play around with her as long as you both want, it’s in the privacy of your home, and you can have exclusive access to her instead of simply “having your turn” after all the men she saw previously and before all the men who will see her after you walk out the door
 
there is no time limit and you can play around with her as long as you both want
This is just a fantasy. In reality a lot of foids are bitches and won't let their cuck bfs do what they want. And a lot of times they don't fuck very much.
instead of simply “having your turn” after all the men she saw previously
:feelskek: all women are whores dude. it's just your turn after all the chads she dated/fucked previously and before all the chads she will fuck after you
 
So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
Happiness and unhappiness is the same coin, different sides. This system of humans of living which is based on happiness and unhappiness was made and created by other living beings far more intelligent than us. We are livestock for them as the cows and pigs are to us. They don't feed with dead flesh as we do. They feed with pure energy. Our emotions create energy and they feed off our energy. This shit is real. These beings "helped" humanity from the beginning of their existence to "evolve" and "develop" societies in order to have more energy for them.

Rate my theory.
 
Thanks for sharing your account. I never really liked the idea of seeing an escort, so these sorts of accounts help me convince myself that I'm not missing out on anything much.
So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.
Sounds plausible enough, tho I guess us incels will never truly know.
I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
Noble. I gave up on that a long time ago.
 
I think its the thick condoms they're using dude. suifuel if you didnt feel anything from a raw oral though. its supposed to be better feeling than intercourse according to some.
 
At the end of the day, you're simply paying a foid to exist and proliferate her degeneracy; I can see how it wouldn't result in much enjoyment... :feelsjuice:
This, escortcels have deluded themselves into thinking this is somehow a valid cope and going to fix them. When in reality incels just want love and affection which most of us will never get :feelsbadman:
 
So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
Escort sex will always feel incomplete. This is why I want to fuck a foid out of desire so much man, I suppose it's a completely different feeling mentally.
 
I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

missing out on teen sex is suicidefuel
 
Are you circumcised?
 
Fuck man,i was about to lose my virginity to a escort and now i don't want to anymore
 
Fuck man,i was about to lose my virginity to a escort and now i don't want to anymore
what made you change your mind ? i am slowly considering this option too but paying feels so cucked also loosing your virginity via payed sex seems pretty humiliating i wonder how escortcels cope with this or how they view it
 
Fake love, it is unfair to pay for something that other men get for free
 
what made you change your mind ? i am slowly considering this option too but paying feels so cucked also loosing your virginity via payed sex seems pretty humiliating i wonder how escortcels cope with this or how they view it
First thing is that condom sex will suck ass and second thing is it's gonna feel pathetic and awkward to lose my virginity to a whore,it's not worth it.I am going to gymmaxx and moneymaxx.Fuck escorts
 
So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
Escortcel's cope
 
Simple stop fucking jacking off so much your dick went numb
 
Love is a bit of a fairy tale. It doesn't really exist, at least not for us. Love isn't something we'll ever get to experience. :feelsrope:
 
So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
Brutal no reply pill
 
the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.
What? Low expectation is that under 18 has own car and a job? in most of the world one cannot get even a driver's license before turning 18.

How much did you pay?
 
Congrats. I saw my first escort at 24
 
Is it better than masterbating
I'm not escortcel. What i did was I sucked on my finger as hard as I could, pulling it back and forth and decided that there's no way it would have the same grip as my hand
 
What was the experience like ? Is sex over hyped ? I’m I missing out , it’s no where near equivalent to getting for free from your looks .
I became a sex addict JFL, but now that I’ve become older and been always rejected by women I feel apathetic about sex and relationships
 
So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.

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So, it's probably been about 6 months since I've last posted on this forum but I thought this might be something interesting.

Usually, I am able to contain my horniness well but recently the desire to fuck a real woman has become uncontrollable. The worst part is that I think I was partly shamed into having sex as well. A "friend" of mine knows I am a virgin and constantly talks about all the women he fucks (most of them are mid lol) and tries to convince me to go on Tinder to find girls.

So I decided to give it a shot. After some digging, I found some forum with a bunch of escorts in my city. I bought a burner sim card and a burner phone and I started texting them.

After some back and forth, I finally settled on one of them. We agreed to meet up for a quick visit the next day.

I arrived at her place and, after opening the door, I was met by a woman stripped down to her underwear. Her tits were big (I'm not sure the size but they had to be D or higher). Her face wasn't that attractive but was cute and her ass was fat and juicy.

She led me back into the bedroom and started taking off my clothes. Maybe I shouldn't have done this but I told her this was my first time. She seemed a little surprised and told me she hadn't seen a virgin before. We started kissing. It was pretty awkward and it felt a lot different from what I thought it would feel like. I could feel her tongue moving around in my throat. Then I started to play with her, starting with her tits. They felt like any other part of the body which is what I was expecting but were a lot heavier than I thought they would be. I played with her ass too and lightly smacked it.

Eventually, she made me lie down on the bed and started sucking me. This was the first time things deviated greatly from what I was expecting. I could hardly feel the blowjob. And she was putting effort into it too, I could see beads of her spit dripping down my shaft and yet I couldn't feel what was happening.

After a little bit of that, she put the condom on and started riding me. I couldn't feel it all. It was as if my dick was still in my pants and she was riding the air. (As a side note, I was still hard through all of this, I just couldn't feel any of it). After riding me, I told her I wanted to fuck her doggystyle. I could feel that position a little bit more but I started thrusting too hard and my dick kept slipping out. So we decided to do missionary. Missionary was nice because I could see her reaction while I fucked her but I still couldn't really feel it. Finally, we ended with her putting her legs up and me fucking her hard in missionary. I couldn't cum.

The second time was a lot of the same but longer. I felt her pussy (very wet) and licked her a bit (I know it's risky but I had to see what it tasted like). She jerked me off some too and about half way we took a break from fucking and she had an orgasm with her vibrator. I couldn't cum again but I wasn't mad or disappointed in myself. I had observed everything society wanted me to observe about sex. The gaping void in my life that was lack of sex had been filled.

But I wasn't happy. Sure, I came home with a smile and the next day I nutted like three times in a row but even though I had had sex, I hadn't found happiness. There was still something missing in my life. It stumped me.

So, I started thinking about it and, long story short, I finally figured out what I was still missing: love. Sure, I could go find another 10 escorts and fuck them all and have a great time, but I still wouldn't have love. They would move on to see their next client and I would move on to see my next escort.

I don't even think that I could find love now - it's too late for me.

I think the only place where a man can truly love a girl is in junior high and high school. In those years, you're both in the same school and taking the same classes, the expectations are low on the man (have a part time job and a car), the girls are virgins and any guy older than 18 are legally out of the picture.

The problem with finding love in high school, is that girls that age judge guys based solely off of looks (remember how many high school foids were in love with Justin Bieber?). This means that if you don't have the looks in high school, it will be impossible for you to find love in high school.

After high school, the next place a man can find love is if he has kids (I would assume). But eventually the cute kid grows up, turns into a teenage brat and gets a job and you can't love it in the same way anymore.

So most normies in society, do experience love but they only experience it in fleeting moments. A little bit in high school and a little bit more in the early years of raising their kids.

I want to figure out how to carry love in my heart everywhere I go, no matter the circumstances in my life. Maybe that will be the final void I have to fill in order for me to attain true happiness.
You fool. Do you know what you did? You supported women's profiting off our misery. You supported women. Gave them your money. I will say through, you're correct about highschool and children. That really is the only time a man feels love. Eventually love fades and you're left with an empty bitter hatred. We just never experienced any of those so all we have is hatred.
 
You have problem with my method of experiment?
pretty based tbh even foids say thier fesikh hole texture closest to inside of the mouth and unlike the silicone which is cold this is warm interesting perspective.
 

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