It's Over Roast me: afraid of doing schoolwork of any kind, afraid of being judged and competing and putting effort in because when I do my schoolwork my min

[JimMilton]

mind thinks things that make either sad, depressed, anxious or very worried. Yes it’s a cop out, and I’m sure the dopamine and phone shit and porn stuff (using and watching all the time for both those things) are the problem. I’m a pussy frankly, that’s why I’m scared, it’s very pathetic to be in your 20’s a massive pussy and it’s all my fault.

Man up Jim is what I’m saying; first one to go to uni in my family but I’m such a coward that I’ll likely do it terribly like I have already scraping by afraid of routines and being boxed in with my anxiety it’s so pathetic.

Myself is the problem in everything in my life nothing external except women not finding me alpha, I’m very omega and don’t deserve a woman or my mother who has been my world or my dad who stepped up for me. I haven’t been the best to either of them, which my actions to them. Some people don’t deserve their lives (the good parts of mine) truly I don’t and I hope I suffer and feel the consequences of my bullshit.

Years ago I got diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder, but really, I’m just a fucking scaredy cat pussy bitch, that deserves to be in a line up and shot.

Go fuck myself.

 

[guessthatsit]

it’s all my fault.

No.

 

[JimMilton]

No.

Why do you say that?

 

[j10009504]

bro you are too hard on yourself

 

[JimMilton]

I can

bro you are too hard on yourself

appreciate that, but I also don’t get out of my comfort zone much anymore, I’ve been told that and I agree

 

[guessthatsit]

Why do you say that?

It's not your fault for being a sub 5 male born into a family who doesn't love you.

 

[GermanManlet]

I can relate very much
I feel the same maybe not as hard as you but especially in my early twenties it was somtimes terrible with the anxiety
Once i tried benzos i knew how normal ppl feel like

 

[guessthatsit]

Don't hate yourself that much. It might sound bluepilled but self love is actually a good thing. Especially for us loners.

 

[guessthatsit]

"Sometimes you just gotta bitch out"

 

[JimMilton]

I’m sub5 but the other stuff isn’t true, unless you can give me a good theory as to why they don’t with an idea about if they did this or that they don’t really love you idk

It's not your fault for being a sub 5 male born into a family who doesn't love you.

 

[JimMilton]

I can relate very much
I feel the same maybe not as hard as you but especially in my early twenties it was somtimes terrible with the anxiety
Once i tried benzos i knew how normal ppl feel like

Sorry to hear that, how are you these days, and did the tablets have any lasting impact?

 

[JimMilton]

Don't hate yourself that much. It might sound bluepilled but self love is actually a good thing. Especially for us loners.

It makes sense to me, I’ll try not to but there are reasons that still exist that are my fault as to why. But yes I’ll be kinder to myself and maybe I’ll stop jerking.

 

[JimMilton]

"Sometimes you just gotta bitch out"

I’ve heard that from somewhere what movie?

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

Reading your threads makes me feel bad for you. Why do you feel like a sinner? Why do you keep repeating that it's your fault? Why do you think that you deserve punishment? You don't deserve anything.
I am ugly, low IQ, I have mental disorders, I have failed university. I hate the cards I was dealt with but I don't blame myself like this.

 

[JimMilton]

Reading your threads makes me feel bad for you. Why do you feel like a sinner? Why do you keep repeating that it's your fault? Why do you think that you deserve punishment? You don't deserve anything.
I am ugly, low IQ, I have mental disorders, I have failed university. I hate the cards I was dealt with but I don't blame myself like this.

Some of those questions I find hard to answer, but I'll boil it down to this: evil actions, narcissism, attention seeking, and not being authentic. I say it's my fault because I truly have nothing to blame other than myself. I deserve punishment because of the above things, don't feel bad for me, I did it to myself. Sorry to hear you've got all those things, I'm glad you don't blame yourself that's good.

 

[j10009504]

Some of those questions I find hard to answer, but I'll boil it down to this: evil actions, narcissism, attention seeking, and not being authentic. I say it's my fault because I truly have nothing to blame other than myself. I deserve punishment because of the above things, don't feel bad for me, I did it to myself. Sorry to hear you've got all those things, I'm glad you don't blame yourself that's good.

you don't sound like a narcissist. you would not present yourself this way if you were. They would never criticize themselves and have an inflated sense of value. you sound like the opposite.

 

[JimMilton]

you don't sound like a narcissist. you would not present yourself this way if you were. They would never criticize themselves and have an inflated sense of value. you sound like the opposite.

I guess I don't sound like a narcissist but that's what covert narcissism is, seeming humble and nice when you are bad. I think I like to victimise myself, or at least I'm a bit masochistic and stuff, I do in my mind want to fight when things threaten my ego, but I also know the truth of what I am and do, that is, not good like I sometimes think.

 

[j10009504]

I guess I don't sound like a narcissist but that's what covert narcissism is, seeming humble and nice when you are bad. I think I like to victimise myself, or at least I'm a bit masochistic and stuff, I do in my mind want to fight when things threaten my ego, but I also know the truth of what I am and do, that is, not good like I sometimes think.

think what you will but I guarantee you are not that bad of a person.

 

[JimMilton]

think what you will but I guarantee you are not that bad of a person.

I appreciate that thank you, maybe I'm not.

 

[Light Yagami]

I sometimes feel hopeless and worthless as well, but don't blame yourself for every failure in your life. I get where you're coming from. It makes logical sense to hate yourself after seeing your life crumble before your eyes slowly, but all we can do is just embrace it and find peace in the destruction. We have many enemies in this world and don't let yourself be an extra unnecessary enemy. A lot of materials needed for success were just not given to us. Not our fault we had bad genes and environments.

 

[GermanManlet]

Sorry to hear that, how are you these days, and did the tablets have any lasting impact?

Its been better because with time i learned just not to care or maybe care less about certain stuff. The tablets help me being less neurotic but i try to limit the intake, only when i know i will have a stressful day to galm down, because the downside of them if taken too often causes depression.

 

[JimMilton]

Its been better because with time i learned just not to care or maybe care less about certain stuff. The tablets help me being less neurotic but i try to limit the intake, only when i know i will have a stressful day to galm down, because the downside of them if taken too often causes depression.

That's good to hear, except that side effect that's no good, but I'm glad things are going a bit better.

 

[JimMilton]

I sometimes feel hopeless and worthless as well, but don't blame yourself for every failure in your life. I get where you're coming from. It makes logical sense to hate yourself after seeing your life crumble before your eyes slowly, but all we can do is just embrace it and find peace in the destruction. We have many enemies in this world and don't let yourself be an extra unnecessary enemy. A lot of materials needed for success were just not given to us. Not our fault we had bad genes and environments.

I appreciate you saying this thank you, I know I'm my enemy mostly, subcncious and also being dopamine chasing, I'll give myself more of a chance.

 

[guessthatsit]

I’ve heard that from somewhere what movie?

oreo man. He is a bp youtuber

 

[JimMilton]

oreo man. He is a bp youtuber

Oh ok I see