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Lebensmüder
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I never even got a date. And even most dates are for females nothing more than a way to grab cheap food, it's only a rare stochastical event for a normalfag that a relationship occurs after a date (and even then there are too many barriers to cross afterwards) - most of the time he gets financially exploited as a cheap source of food and afterwards the relationship is completely asymmetrical in terms of power/effort/etc. A date is only maybe the beginning of something and not even that step could be achieved by me. A date is the 1+1=2 of getting relationships and I never even got one.
It is so fucking brutal how these small moments just never happened for me. I never held hands with a girl, I never went over a field with her or looked down from a bridge with her or just have a woman to talk to - and yes, a romantic/sexual relationship is a necessity for that, because blood is ALWAYS thicker than water which means that platonic friends are only ever second priority and are like playthings that get removed from the locker once in a while when extreme boredom exists
The last days were extremely black pilling, I saw a couple standing at the point of a bridge looking down at the cars where I wanted to jump from a few years ago - seriously fuck this life. And so much for fashionmaxxing: I saw a man dressed like Klaus Brunner with a noodlewhore with aposematic hair color. Height, neurotypicality, frame, dick size and face is all - the rest is a supplement.
It is so fucking brutal how these small moments just never happened for me. I never held hands with a girl, I never went over a field with her or looked down from a bridge with her or just have a woman to talk to - and yes, a romantic/sexual relationship is a necessity for that, because blood is ALWAYS thicker than water which means that platonic friends are only ever second priority and are like playthings that get removed from the locker once in a while when extreme boredom exists
The last days were extremely black pilling, I saw a couple standing at the point of a bridge looking down at the cars where I wanted to jump from a few years ago - seriously fuck this life. And so much for fashionmaxxing: I saw a man dressed like Klaus Brunner with a noodlewhore with aposematic hair color. Height, neurotypicality, frame, dick size and face is all - the rest is a supplement.