It's silly how no matter what I do I'll always be an incel. I don't even know why I bother avoiding this feeling now, as I'm typing this I'm alone in the park only person I've seen is a curry trucel I feel bad for him, probably trying to escape his loneliness to. You know as I was leaving the house my sister jokingly said "are you going to a girls house." Even my sister is making fun of my inceldom it might be over if it wasn't already.
In terms of college Im doing pretty shit, my mom is retarded (genetic maybe) so she thinks that me being on the computer if why I'm doing so bad so now that I'm not using it I can't even do my college work anymore with out being yelled at about "playing games" I think I'm just gonna give up and drop college it's not worth it at this point.
My munimum wage job interview went well though I'll be getting an enail tommorow about when I start training maybe that'll be a good distraction for this horrible loneliness man. I'm probably gonna hate it more than college because normies will get to harrass me and I wont be able to do anything because Im getting paid, I think my options are so limited man not sure what to do... It's funny how you always have a lot of time until you suddenly don't and your parents are yelling at you and your social life is non-existent.
Probably just gonna go smoke weed tomorrow and continue sleeping 15+ hours a day, tired of listening to all these people telling me what to do when they can't imagine my life, the depression, the loneliness, the futility. But if you read that whole rant thanks I guess.
In terms of college Im doing pretty shit, my mom is retarded (genetic maybe) so she thinks that me being on the computer if why I'm doing so bad so now that I'm not using it I can't even do my college work anymore with out being yelled at about "playing games" I think I'm just gonna give up and drop college it's not worth it at this point.
My munimum wage job interview went well though I'll be getting an enail tommorow about when I start training maybe that'll be a good distraction for this horrible loneliness man. I'm probably gonna hate it more than college because normies will get to harrass me and I wont be able to do anything because Im getting paid, I think my options are so limited man not sure what to do... It's funny how you always have a lot of time until you suddenly don't and your parents are yelling at you and your social life is non-existent.
Probably just gonna go smoke weed tomorrow and continue sleeping 15+ hours a day, tired of listening to all these people telling me what to do when they can't imagine my life, the depression, the loneliness, the futility. But if you read that whole rant thanks I guess.
