So I have been pretty much lobotomized by my life style, the food I eat, the unending depression, all the realizations of hopelessness of my situation of futility of any efforts and so on,
It has gotten to a point where I can no longer enjoy anything if it is uneasy to obtain, or takes a long time to accomplish. Things like going through some programming course for example, or getting some third party top up certificate, things like that are completely out of the question. Too boring, too hard and takes too long.
And because of that, I have found myself in a situation where the only thing I enjoy is queuing up faceit matches (cs2) and trying to get a quick win (mind you I hadnt played for 3 years,the. came back a couple months ago, got to lvl10 it was surprisingly easy, now I am at 2300 elo stuck, and it turns out like 20% of faceit userbase is lvl10 so it’s nothing anymore, how things have changed @Trident) and if I can’t get a quick win I just rush the enemy team in hopes of magically getting 2-3-4 kills and ending the round quick like that.
As you can imagine, my life has turned into a non stop faceit grind where I have no progress at this point, eating cheesecakes all while my entire body stinks like crazy because I haven’t showered in like 2 weeks
Previously I used to play destiny2 but since that is pretty much gone now I just queue faceit non stop in hopes of making it to 2500 elo. I am completely brain dead at this point, I don’t know how long I can sustain this kind of lifestyle.
I also rage hard asf because cs2 is a piece of garbage and you die behind walls and 20% of hits don’t register
It has gotten to a point where I can no longer enjoy anything if it is uneasy to obtain, or takes a long time to accomplish. Things like going through some programming course for example, or getting some third party top up certificate, things like that are completely out of the question. Too boring, too hard and takes too long.
And because of that, I have found myself in a situation where the only thing I enjoy is queuing up faceit matches (cs2) and trying to get a quick win (mind you I hadnt played for 3 years,the. came back a couple months ago, got to lvl10 it was surprisingly easy, now I am at 2300 elo stuck, and it turns out like 20% of faceit userbase is lvl10 so it’s nothing anymore, how things have changed @Trident) and if I can’t get a quick win I just rush the enemy team in hopes of magically getting 2-3-4 kills and ending the round quick like that.
As you can imagine, my life has turned into a non stop faceit grind where I have no progress at this point, eating cheesecakes all while my entire body stinks like crazy because I haven’t showered in like 2 weeks
Previously I used to play destiny2 but since that is pretty much gone now I just queue faceit non stop in hopes of making it to 2500 elo. I am completely brain dead at this point, I don’t know how long I can sustain this kind of lifestyle.
I also rage hard asf because cs2 is a piece of garbage and you die behind walls and 20% of hits don’t register
