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Hello, I am from India Kerala, i was born in 1998, my parents where normal people, who had huge fights which I witnessed as a kid, I was so damaged as a kid, i Was raped when I was 8 years old, I kinda enjoyed it always asked him to do it more to me, till I was 12 years old, then as I grew up , I kept on masturbating day in day out, I was good at studies, good at arts, kind of a topper till high schooL. But I was also a slutty person. I had a huge empty feeling in me always which I tried to fill with attention from men . So I had a boyfriend, I met him when I was 12 , I stayed loyal to him for 11 years and I thought I meant something to him, I was his sex doll in real, a body for him to experiment, loneliness crept in me, I ended up cheating on him and lost him too. Then came my whore phase, I started to sleep around, stopped studying at all, got into drugs and made myself available so easily, I forgot about everything else, like a future , job , career, my parents tried so hard to get me back but I was just an asshole to everyone, they made sure I can’t have sex anymore and took me far away but there is always the Internet, I became a internet whore, taking off clothes on camera, I never asked for money even, I got involved with dangerous people, my parents gave me chance after chance,I just end up ruining it again and again. I am a 26 year old with no career,job or a single friend, I am a slutty asshole, so today I have taken a decision to end it all. Do u think I should jump off from the 4 or 6 Th floor , I would like some direction on how to do it, I have to do it today, any methods are okay, I want it done a 100 percent I wanna b dead and end it all. I hate living as this slut. I do deserve to die so that someone will have a better chance at life not me.