Venting Pretending to be happy

[HappilySingle]

Despite hating just about every single thing about my life I still somehow pretend to be a normal happy everything is okay human being. I am polite. I actually sometimes pull off not looking like I want to murder the person in front of me, even though in my head, I am constantly fighting not to go ER.

It's like following a script. Wake up. Go to my shit job. Get yelled at by moronic sex heavers all day about why their email doesn't work. I get treated like shit, like my sole purpose in life is to fix their email; which ironically isn't far from the truth seeing as outside of work I don't do shit.

It feels like I am already dead yet I am still alive. Each day I get older and older, each birthday a reminder that I am now one year further away from a youth I never had.

Even if I died today, it wouldn't matter. I'm already dead.

Fuck this hell.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Are you an IT administrator?

 

[HappilySingle]

Are you an IT administrator?

Helpdesk same shit but even more humiliating.

 

[Saigon Depression]

Helpdesk same shit but even more humiliating.

As far as I can understand, it's quite monotonous.

 

[Chinkbonics]

I have no reason to pretend to be happy anymore. Who the fuck am I trying to impress? Everybody already wants me dead.

 

[The Zulfigar]

I do too. Fuck people, though, i don't care. I'm not trying to show off or something. If there's some small things and copes that boosts my mood atm I'll go for it, i will laugh and enjoy myself. People know how over it is, and they will feel better seeing you suffer. I lost the battle before i even fought, though i don't want to just sit around and look like i have diarrhea.