IDK but for me I kind of get off on not being wanted and yet finding a loophole to circumvent society's rules
I've never really gotten this obsession with being desired, I don't care about being desired because I don't want to be the individual that is acted upon, I want to be the actor (the subject not the object), I want to be the one that is controlling, that is dominating, that is owning
If I could choose between being a 10/10 Giga Chad or being my regular incel self as a millionaire, I'd always choose to be myself, maybe my psyche adapted to this, or maybe I was always conveniently like this, but either way I'm fine with how things are as long as I can get rich, in fact its preferable to me this way