I've dropped out of university some time ago bc lowiq and hard-working doesn't pay off, I didn't have debt because I used the money I made in highschool to pay for a single semester.
I didn't have money to continue for another semester without loans and with my grades, there was no point.
I've been working as a child care worker recently and my boss reguarly gets angry with me and my coworkers don't really interact with me. It's part time and poorly paid without any benefits so it doesn't really matter.
I also been playing the lottery with scratch off tickets. I won a few $25, $50 and $100s. I'm in the green right now but I know I'll be in the red if I keep going.
But I'm 5'3.5 and ethnic (something brownish). I don't really have a future other than to kill myself as there's nothing going doesn't me. My mom works as a janitor and if she doesn't have a job then we can't afford rent. I checked my pay at the childcare website in yearly format and it was $9,100.
I owe my car (some 1998 grey car, Craigslist said it was around $2,000) but I don't have insurance and haven't changed the tires since I got it. I also have $4,500 in my bank.
If I go to university again, this time without a scholarship that I threw away by dropping out, then that $4,500 wont even cover the first semester. That's assuming if I even have $4,500 if I do Community college which still has tuition, books and fees.
So back to the gambling and lottery. I think I spent $200 on scratch tickets since I started two weeks ago. I've been going to the grocery store daily, sometimes I'm there to claim my winnings or sometimes I'm going there out of habit now. The people who process my tickets don't say anything anymore (not like they smiled or greeted me in the first place).
I know I'm wasting my money but I'm poor and this is what poor people do. I have no future even if i work hard. I won't have any descendants. Or a spouse. I won't have a house or car insurance or health insurance. I'm just 5'3.5 and smaller than half of the children I have to work with. They call me Mr. Poopy noe because they're East Asian or white. If there aren't other teachers nearby to keep them in line then I'm just a Mr. Poopy
I really want to win because I can pay my mother for my funeral and for her to go back home bc she doesn't know how to read or write English. And so that she doesn't kill herself afterwards.
I didn't have money to continue for another semester without loans and with my grades, there was no point.
I've been working as a child care worker recently and my boss reguarly gets angry with me and my coworkers don't really interact with me. It's part time and poorly paid without any benefits so it doesn't really matter.
I also been playing the lottery with scratch off tickets. I won a few $25, $50 and $100s. I'm in the green right now but I know I'll be in the red if I keep going.
But I'm 5'3.5 and ethnic (something brownish). I don't really have a future other than to kill myself as there's nothing going doesn't me. My mom works as a janitor and if she doesn't have a job then we can't afford rent. I checked my pay at the childcare website in yearly format and it was $9,100.
I owe my car (some 1998 grey car, Craigslist said it was around $2,000) but I don't have insurance and haven't changed the tires since I got it. I also have $4,500 in my bank.
If I go to university again, this time without a scholarship that I threw away by dropping out, then that $4,500 wont even cover the first semester. That's assuming if I even have $4,500 if I do Community college which still has tuition, books and fees.
So back to the gambling and lottery. I think I spent $200 on scratch tickets since I started two weeks ago. I've been going to the grocery store daily, sometimes I'm there to claim my winnings or sometimes I'm going there out of habit now. The people who process my tickets don't say anything anymore (not like they smiled or greeted me in the first place).
I know I'm wasting my money but I'm poor and this is what poor people do. I have no future even if i work hard. I won't have any descendants. Or a spouse. I won't have a house or car insurance or health insurance. I'm just 5'3.5 and smaller than half of the children I have to work with. They call me Mr. Poopy noe because they're East Asian or white. If there aren't other teachers nearby to keep them in line then I'm just a Mr. Poopy
I really want to win because I can pay my mother for my funeral and for her to go back home bc she doesn't know how to read or write English. And so that she doesn't kill herself afterwards.
