Just to think if the genetic dice rolled in my favour i'd have a loving gf by now, It's so painful, I'm in decent shape. I have several talents such as the aforementioned photoshop skills. And to think of the effects of having a gf would have had on me in my younger years, I wouldn't have felt so miserable from my experience at school that i would have actually went to college and would have gotten a high paying job by now with an excellent career ahead of me but instead i stuck on permanent welfare not even allowed to work because ever minimum wage job rejects me do to my age combined with my lack of experience, I used to have high grades in Middle school, My grades fucking plummeted in high school i couldn't take it anymore, they way i was treated because of looks combined with my autism it wasn't right, but none of that would have mattered if i had girl by my side. Just fucking brutal man 
