The thought of being intimate with a femoid disgusts me. If a hot, virgin JB threw herself on me desperate to fuck, I'd just break down and cry on the floor in a fetal position. I just can't imagine intimacy at all, not with this retarded looking face, this bald fucking head, this hairy subhuman back. The last thing I want right now is sex, or any type of female attention. Even if I was surgerymaxxed tomorrow, it would take a year or more of gymceling and spiritual healing before I could even be comfortable being physically in close proximity to someone. The only way I could see myself having sex in my current physical state is if whoever I was about to have sex with had a shotgun and promised to blast my heart out of my chest when I came, then I would swallow the disgust I have for myself and fuck so I could die.