People look back to years of their life and remember nostalgically all kinds of experiences. But I just rotted in bed for years, experiencing nothing.

[Deleted member 7448]

So many years I've wasted. Literally no experiences, just consuming entertainment media for 16 hours a day, forgetting about that media in 5 minutes.

More than 10 years of this. My teenage years, my youth. All gone and I haven't formed any memories.

And the brief breaks that I took from rotting I only remember as traumatic memories. The drinking, the public humiliations, all the horrible things I did. And before all that horrible shit even happened I was depressed for years. And I guess drinking was finally one instance of happiness after years of depression, so I just did it more and more. And even when I drank I was all alone at my PC. Except of course when I'd go out and humiliate myself in some way or stumble into another trauma.

But worse than the trauma is the fact that more than a decade has flown by and I have no memories. Just nothing. Browsing the internet and watching the same tv shows over and over. And that's time you don't get back. The best years of my life, my youth. Not to mention that meanwhile my parents are getting older and older with each passing day.

 

[Personalityinkwell]

That's the worst part about the agepill, that your youth was robbed from you while other people lived in paradise during their young years.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

That's the worst part about the agepill, that your youth was robbed from you while other people lived in paradise during their young years.

Not even robbed. I chose this. I did this, I fought against my parent's attempts to do something with my life. But I chose to rot instead for some reason. Why was I like this? Why am I still like this? Why is anything but rotting impossible for me?

Even if others weren't living in paradise, at least they lived. They did something.

 

[Personalityinkwell]

Not even robbed. I chose this. I did this, I fought against my parent's attempts to do something with my life. But I chose to rot instead for some reason. Why was I like this? Why am I still like this? Why is anything but rotting impossible for me?

Even if others weren't living in paradise, at least they lived. They did something.

i guess its unironically your personality. some people are just introverts by nature.

although im not sure if you would be not an incel if you weren't rotting inside all day. thats tough to say

 

[npcel]

While i feel you. 80% of your threads are you describing you rotting in bed with a laptop, always a fun read

 

[MentalistKebab]

Not even robbed. I chose this. I did this, I fought against my parent's attempts to do something with my life. But I chose to rot instead for some reason. Why was I like this? Why am I still like this? Why is anything but rotting impossible for me?

Even if others weren't living in paradise, at least they lived. They did something.

If you were gl you would get a gf whole rotting. But you are right, not having friends is mostly a personality thing unless you are deformed ugly

 

[Justice Bao]

could be worse, imagine living in a 3rd wolrd country without enterainment devices

 

[⠀⠀⠀]

Even when I was young I was so lonely I became attached to random objects like my bed or tools like pencils and basically treated them like friends. I remember when my dad bought a new bed I started crying because I became so attached to it.

This shit is not normal, I kind of get what your saying. There is something deeply wrong with society nowadays, but no one wants to talk about it because Chads are in control and are too busy virtue signaling to women in the hope of getting even more pussy.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

While i feel you. 80% of your threads are you describing you rotting in bed with a laptop, always a fun read

It's all I do man. I know nothing else, this is my life.

 

[Gymcelled]

My only good memories come from video games and i dont even enjoy those anymore

My entire life has been filled with either negative experiences or just bland boredom. I don't feel like i've ever been alive

 

[Deleted member 7448]

My only good memories come from video games and i dont even enjoy those anymore

My entire life has been filled with either negative experiences or just bland boredom. I don't feel like i've ever been alive

Yeah I don't enjoy video games anymore. So for the last few years I search for video games to play to finally find something to enjoy, to fill the void. But there's nothing. But there's nothing else to really do when rotting that could be interesting, so I keep searching.

 

[Cope_Time]

So many years I've wasted. Literally no experiences, just consuming entertainment media for 16 hours a day, forgetting about that media in 5 minutes.

More than 10 years of this. My teenage years, my youth. All gone and I haven't formed any memories.

And the brief breaks that I took from rotting I only remember as traumatic memories. The drinking, the public humiliations, all the horrible things I did. And before all that horrible shit even happened I was depressed for years. And I guess drinking was finally one instance of happiness after years of depression, so I just did it more and more. And even when I drank I was all alone at my PC. Except of course when I'd go out and humiliate myself in some way or stumble into another trauma.

But worse than the trauma is the fact that more than a decade has flown by and I have no memories. Just nothing. Browsing the internet and watching the same tv shows over and over. And that's time you don't get back. The best years of my life, my youth. Not to mention that meanwhile my parents are getting older and older with each passing day.

This is the most brutal one, I burned so much time with looking at my monitor.
I can relate. You are right, while (((them))) living their youth, all I was do is doing random things in my computer.
And the most brutal one is I don't even remember what did I do, nothing worth remembering.

 

[Gymcelled]

Yeah I don't enjoy video games anymore. So for the last few years I search for video games to play to finally find something to enjoy, to fill the void. But there's nothing. But there's nothing else to really do when rotting that could be interesting, so I keep searching.

Pretty much. I'm just coping with trying to get a good career to get me some surgeries. Without this i think i would off myself

 

[Deleted member 27495]

all my good memories come from video games

 

[HeroinNihilism]

Even as chad gets old he can jerk off to foids he fucked 20 years ago

 

[Deleted member 7448]

all my good memories come from video games

What games are your favorite?

 

[Deleted member 27495]

What games are your favorite?

when i was younger i was addicted to minecraft and eventualyl destiny 1 (which i invested like 10k hours into), and also PUBG I have like 2k hours on that. nowadays i play some OSRS and a bunch of casual games like no mans sky and astroneer, im waiting for new world to come out bc that will be my next 10k hour cope

 

[Deleted member 7448]

when i was younger i was addicted to minecraft and eventualyl destiny 1 (which i invested like 10k hours into), and also PUBG I have like 2k hours on that. nowadays i play some OSRS and a bunch of casual games like no mans sky and astroneer, im waiting for new world to come out bc that will be my next 10k hour cope

Can't play osrs anymore. Guess I played too much rs over the years, but for the last few years I just can't stomach grinding for more than a few minutes. WoW grinding is more bearable somehow.

 

[Deleted member 27161]

Based, I wish I had roped years ago tbh

 

[Deleted member 22572]

the public humiliations

Elab

 

[BITG]

That's the worst part about the agepill, that your youth was robbed from you while other people lived in paradise during their young years.

 

[SirIncel]

I watched the movie "Tell me how I die".
In this movie a new drug is introduced. A pill that lets you relive your best memories as if they were happening again. Everyone is hyped so they can experience their best events in life again, for example teen love.

I realized this drug would be totally worthless for me.
There hasn't been any positive memorable experience at all in my life that would be worth to relive.

 

[avoidthefoid2]

So many years I've wasted. Literally no experiences, just consuming entertainment media for 16 hours a day, forgetting about that media in 5 minutes.

More than 10 years of this. My teenage years, my youth. All gone and I haven't formed any memories.

And the brief breaks that I took from rotting I only remember as traumatic memories. The drinking, the public humiliations, all the horrible things I did. And before all that horrible shit even happened I was depressed for years. And I guess drinking was finally one instance of happiness after years of depression, so I just did it more and more. And even when I drank I was all alone at my PC. Except of course when I'd go out and humiliate myself in some way or stumble into another trauma.

But worse than the trauma is the fact that more than a decade has flown by and I have no memories. Just nothing. Browsing the internet and watching the same tv shows over and over. And that's time you don't get back. The best years of my life, my youth. Not to mention that meanwhile my parents are getting older and older with each passing day.

sound EXACTLY like my situation

it's horrible. we have to get these years back

 

[avoidthefoid2]

My only good memories come from video games and i dont even enjoy those anymore

My entire life has been filled with either negative experiences or just bland boredom. I don't feel like i've ever been alive

it's so sad, it's like I'm talking!