Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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My classmates and even some professors at uni must think I'm very scared of corona. I'm the one who keeps saying we shouldn't meet up, every meeting is a potential risk etc... There's people who literally live in another city so it would be very inconvenient for them to meet up, and they protest way, way less than me. Some of them barely said anything, and yet I'm acting like if we meet up we're all going to die.
And I really am scared of infection because my parents are old and have comorbidities and I love them so much. BUT, that's not really why I'm against it this much, not at all, cause my mom goes to work every day anyway.
Tbh I'm so lazy (and maybe agoraphobic and definitely avoidant of people) that it's going to be biting me in the ass so hard. Thursday we have to meet up. (there's seminars that they fucking have to have in person for some fucking reason, fucking bureaucracy man, the only reason they have to do it is that a higher-up dude decided it's time to do it, despite this being one of the most infected per capita shitholes in the god damn region. Fuck I'm really pissed.).
Anyway, I have no problem skipping seminars, but apparently they're going to make us pick out our thesis topics on thursday, form a list of them. And I won't fucking go, I'm using corona as an excuse but really I'm just so lazy and maybe a bit agoraphobic. I'll be majorly screwed by this, I'll only get to choose the leftover topics (and I'll have to go and write the request in person anyway). Probably will have to work much harder on a shitty subject with barely any sources. This will fuck me up for several months.
And this is the weird part about my laziness: if I only put in a bit of effort now I'd be much better off in the future, I know this. But I just can't make myself do it. It's like I'm disabled or some shit, I just can't do it it's too stressful and it drains too much energy. Despite it being just a simple trip to the university, sitting there for a few hours and then coming back. Nothing bad or stressful and yet I'm dreading it for days now. It's not even the corona, that's not on my mind that much or at all really. I just don't want to go, I don't want go there and waste a few hours, I just want to rot at home. And yet this will just make me more anxious and I'll keep stressing about what important info I'm missing out on, because of course nobody will bother telling me afterwards, they keep important info to themselves, not even the uni posts it somewhere like a normal university. No, in this country if you're not there then you're supposed to have your friends tell you. Of course that just ends up with me stressing out and not knowing anything unless I personally go there.
And I really am scared of infection because my parents are old and have comorbidities and I love them so much. BUT, that's not really why I'm against it this much, not at all, cause my mom goes to work every day anyway.
Tbh I'm so lazy (and maybe agoraphobic and definitely avoidant of people) that it's going to be biting me in the ass so hard. Thursday we have to meet up. (there's seminars that they fucking have to have in person for some fucking reason, fucking bureaucracy man, the only reason they have to do it is that a higher-up dude decided it's time to do it, despite this being one of the most infected per capita shitholes in the god damn region. Fuck I'm really pissed.).
Anyway, I have no problem skipping seminars, but apparently they're going to make us pick out our thesis topics on thursday, form a list of them. And I won't fucking go, I'm using corona as an excuse but really I'm just so lazy and maybe a bit agoraphobic. I'll be majorly screwed by this, I'll only get to choose the leftover topics (and I'll have to go and write the request in person anyway). Probably will have to work much harder on a shitty subject with barely any sources. This will fuck me up for several months.
And this is the weird part about my laziness: if I only put in a bit of effort now I'd be much better off in the future, I know this. But I just can't make myself do it. It's like I'm disabled or some shit, I just can't do it it's too stressful and it drains too much energy. Despite it being just a simple trip to the university, sitting there for a few hours and then coming back. Nothing bad or stressful and yet I'm dreading it for days now. It's not even the corona, that's not on my mind that much or at all really. I just don't want to go, I don't want go there and waste a few hours, I just want to rot at home. And yet this will just make me more anxious and I'll keep stressing about what important info I'm missing out on, because of course nobody will bother telling me afterwards, they keep important info to themselves, not even the uni posts it somewhere like a normal university. No, in this country if you're not there then you're supposed to have your friends tell you. Of course that just ends up with me stressing out and not knowing anything unless I personally go there.
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