This, we deserve life and only others make it miserable. I would never take myself out at this point because I know that there is nothing wrong with me and so(y)ciety is to blame for my plight, it's not my fault when I make them uncomfortable due to my existence as a short/autistic male, I won't restrict myself (or throw away my life) to make so(y)ciety (and especially women) more comfortable.
I never intrinsically felt bad in my life, only others made me feel bad. I often thought about suicide, but if I did I would have done what so(y)ciety wants and I would have denied myself certain experiences (like my copes) that make life worthwhile. If I had killed myself I would have denied myself so many experiences (both in a negative way and in a positive way).