Atavistic Autist
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View: https://www.reddit.com/r/opiates/comments/17g52u0/lonely_lost_and_addicted/
I realize the reason I love the opioid high so much is because it completely gets rid of any desire to socialize. I can sit in my little room alone all day, getting high and be completely ok with being a total loser and loner. Been like this for two years now, tried to quit many times with no success because I was never able to solve the root problem - i.e. being the weird kid, an outcast with zero social skills, no game with girls whatsoever, not belonging anywhere and now also being so bitter, angry, depressed etc. that I've given up and accepted my fate of being alone and dying alone. I am such a degenerate now that I can't even imagine anyone actually want to hang out with me. The pills and powders are my only friends now.
Here is another post from years ago saying the exact same thing:
The only pushback I would make on these posts is against the idea that just because you take an opioid, you are an "addict" who is "getting high." This completely depends upon how you use the drug, and whether you take the appropriate steps to ensure that your opioid use is as medicinal as possible by consuming only the lowest effective dose and controlling tolerance.
It is ironic that people who use a substance which takes away shame and social pain cannot free themselves from the notion that they are "degenerate druggies" for it. It's like, dude, you have literally found the Holy Grail against depression and social expectation but are still allowing yourself to be browbeaten by the superego, or the collective opinions of others This actually has everything to do with a failure to establish proper protocol. These people are not taking the lowest effective dose of an opioid agonist at regular intervals, but rather are taking opioids randomly and haphazardly, and sporadically entering opioid rebound and withdrawal. What a nightmare -- it would be tantamount to injecting hormones with no plan for how to make it sustainable!
As I have written in my many threads on the Opioid Pill, opioids were COMMONLY PRESCRIBED for depression over the course of a century (from about ~1850 to 1956). And they were used since ancient times by all peoples, from Europe to Asia. This is a gift that nature has given humanity, which is why I want to share it with all of you on this forum who are suffering so much from loneliness.
In my own experience, opioids have enabled me to deal with the fact that I am a lonely sperg with no social status for the first time in my life. Combining it with a stimulant has not only gotten rid of my lifelong depression and BPD-tier symptoms, but my ADHD and fatigue too and has made me the most productive I've literally ever been.
My life is not a waste just because I can't fit in with normalfags/foids and have to take an opioid to supplement for the missing social attachment; on the contrary, these have been the best days of my life. And I am just using the lowest effective doses of my opioid agonist and stimulant -- not "getting high" like a retard, but dialing in a therapeutic dose and benefiting tremendously for it.
Indeed, I never really liked interacting with people ever since I was a young child. The only thing that made me want to do so was a desire to ameliorate a sense of pain, and gain comfort in the presence of others. In other words, a negative motivation, not a positive one. Except that people are backstabbers and judgmental, and will use you and discard you. They are not to be relied upon, especially in this alienated soyciety where humans are rendered as disposable as the cheap, consumer goods they worship.
Opioids give you the sense of unconditional belonging and love that you always wish you had, and that our soyciety fails to provide to even many well-adjusted people. Being able to be comfortable in my own skin, and not desperately need regulation from others is a godsend. I will never be dependent upon another person again. Perhaps this will one day enable me to take advantage of others, for a change
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