A couple of years ago I saw this beautiful foid that instantly caught my attention. For some reason, I just thought she looked perfect. However, I did not think much of it until I was bored one day and decided to try finding her social media. My first attempt failed so I did not think much about her again, but one day a couple of months ago I decided to try again and it was a success.
Now that I had pictures of her, I could not stop thinking about her. Although she was objectively around MTB, I would take her over any Stacy. Her hair and phenotype combined with the innocent, animal like look in her eyes made her irresistible to me. Her soulless, dark eyes signified a sort of transparency as there was no contradiction between my feelings for her and the knowledge of foids as empty, hollow husks. The way I felt looking at her was similar to how one feels when they look at a cute animal, though of course there was more to it. However it needs to be clear that I do not have any real sexual feelings to her, as is true with all foids that I develop a deep fascination with.
It needs to be known that at this point I never actually talked to her or interacted with her in any way. Blinded by longing, I wanted there to be some way that I can live on in her memory. I decided the best way to do this was to create an alternate social media account where I harassed her. The details are irrelevant and difficult to explain, but it is safe to say that I will live on in her memory for a long time if not forever. I also hoped that this interaction would make me lose any attraction I may have had, but unfortunately it only resulted in the opposite effect.
This event initially made me doubt how blackpilled I was. I thought that it would be impossible for me to be infatuated with a non-fictional foid as I had been pummeling myself with the blackpill and dedicating the last couple years of my life to hopelessness. Upon further introspection of the mechanisms behind this attraction, I realized that they fit quite nicely within a blackpilled paradigm. I realized that I had always been cognizant of the fact that the only reason that I liked her was because her looks captivated me for whatever reason. Especially, as I mentioned before, the lack of contradiction between the her beautiful, barely sentient eyes and foids inner animalistic nature. It almost felt like seeing a foid for what it is for the first time, unburdened by any flowery images or lies about their sentience or nature. By some otherworldy will, I looked at her and saw past the illussion, and only saw her for the empty, emotionless, bestial being that she is, and somehow, I liked it.
Now that I am writing this down, this seemingly random attraction makes sense to me. The blackpill jedi power that I worked so hard to grow culminated in it guiding me to the foid who is nothing more than what she presents, or perhaps only I saw her that way. What I previously thought was a blunder in my blackpill career was actually a very important result and furthering of it.
Anyone get what I am talking about or have a similar experience? Any other similar thoughts? Thanks for reading this if you did!
Now that I had pictures of her, I could not stop thinking about her. Although she was objectively around MTB, I would take her over any Stacy. Her hair and phenotype combined with the innocent, animal like look in her eyes made her irresistible to me. Her soulless, dark eyes signified a sort of transparency as there was no contradiction between my feelings for her and the knowledge of foids as empty, hollow husks. The way I felt looking at her was similar to how one feels when they look at a cute animal, though of course there was more to it. However it needs to be clear that I do not have any real sexual feelings to her, as is true with all foids that I develop a deep fascination with.
It needs to be known that at this point I never actually talked to her or interacted with her in any way. Blinded by longing, I wanted there to be some way that I can live on in her memory. I decided the best way to do this was to create an alternate social media account where I harassed her. The details are irrelevant and difficult to explain, but it is safe to say that I will live on in her memory for a long time if not forever. I also hoped that this interaction would make me lose any attraction I may have had, but unfortunately it only resulted in the opposite effect.
This event initially made me doubt how blackpilled I was. I thought that it would be impossible for me to be infatuated with a non-fictional foid as I had been pummeling myself with the blackpill and dedicating the last couple years of my life to hopelessness. Upon further introspection of the mechanisms behind this attraction, I realized that they fit quite nicely within a blackpilled paradigm. I realized that I had always been cognizant of the fact that the only reason that I liked her was because her looks captivated me for whatever reason. Especially, as I mentioned before, the lack of contradiction between the her beautiful, barely sentient eyes and foids inner animalistic nature. It almost felt like seeing a foid for what it is for the first time, unburdened by any flowery images or lies about their sentience or nature. By some otherworldy will, I looked at her and saw past the illussion, and only saw her for the empty, emotionless, bestial being that she is, and somehow, I liked it.
Now that I am writing this down, this seemingly random attraction makes sense to me. The blackpill jedi power that I worked so hard to grow culminated in it guiding me to the foid who is nothing more than what she presents, or perhaps only I saw her that way. What I previously thought was a blunder in my blackpill career was actually a very important result and furthering of it.
Anyone get what I am talking about or have a similar experience? Any other similar thoughts? Thanks for reading this if you did!
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