Venting One time I went on vacation overseas with family and had a good time, but I could tell they weren't that happy with me

[MajorThomas666]

They went on a vacation without me, and that's the vacation they continue to talk about. They've said nothing really about the vacation we went on, as if it never happened. I think this is because I don't like the public, and they like to go out and party and dance, so they were catering to me without telling me, and it made them more miserable.
Another time I went to an island with my cousin, thinking we had a great time, only for me to see a text on his old razor phone that said, "get me the fuck outta here", to his friends.

I got pretty depressed because, while I thought we were having a fun time, he probably hated being with me that particular week, and I still don't understand why.
And yet another time, I went i to the mountains with two High School friends, and they wanted to stay up but I decided to go to sleep because I didn't want to feel like shit the next day, and I overheard them say, "why did we even bring him, we should have brought "Ryan" (a taller and more handsome friend, whose now married to the women he cheated on). "We can't bring him next time."

All my young adult life I've been the punching bag and jestermaxxer. I'd do insane risky things in order to cater to Chad and his harem. I was a clown to be discarded. Once I toned down and straightened up, I wasn't wanted anymore.

 

[Amuro_Ray]

I think some people are never happy with anything, whats the point of acting nice to you only for it to be fake???
If people will only fake liking you, its just going to hurt you more.

I think its better off sometimes never meeting people and just being alone, at least the only person judging you is yourself.

 

[MajorThomas666]

N

I think some people are never happy with anything, whats the point of acting nice to you only for it to be fake???
If people will only fake liking you, its just going to hurt you more.

I think its better off sometimes never meeting people and just being alone, at least the only person judging you is yourself.

being alone is nice, I will admit. But you need to have security in life

 

[Amuro_Ray]

N

being alone is nice, I will admit. But you need to have security in life

Thats true, honestly its hard to imagine ill ever find that feeling

 

[cursed]

I think its better off sometimes never meeting people and just being alone, at least the only person judging you is yourself.

exactly.
get a dog if you can't have friends.

pet in general aren't for everyone but im sure at least he will make you laugh sometimes and never ask you for nothing.

I have a dog.
but sadly i can't keep him inside sometimes i rot so hard my parents have to take care of him, but i always get him food twice a day and let him out to walk around the neighborhood alone. i live in a small city so there's no danger for him after 8pm.

he walks around and come back inside on his own. bro's like a human but without any of the bad things.

 

[Amuro_Ray]

exactly.
get a dog if you can't have friends.

pet in general aren't for everyone but im sure at least he will make you laugh sometimes and never ask you for nothing.

I have a dog.
but sadly i can't keep him inside sometimes i rot so hard my parents have to take care of him, but i always get him food twice a day and let him out to walk around the neighborhood alone. i live in a small city so there's no danger for him after 8pm.

he walks around and come back inside on his own. bro's like a human but without any of the bad things.

Its good you try to do things for him at least, walking them everyday is such a huge responsibility and is tiresome. Ends up feeling like a chore but having them there is therapeutic

 

[cursed]

therapeutic

i heard a cope in a YouTube video once that taking care of a pet is a great way to learn how to be a friend. Doing selfless acts. Taking care of someone and being there for them even though you're sick or the weather is not nice or whatever.
Its kinda being a cuck but a dog can't pick is owner so he can't cuck you or use you and then find another owner.
And the dog also can't stop talking to you since it doesn't talk but you can pretend it listens without the hassle of being judged and what not

its a win win in my view

 

[Gen.SchizoAfricanus]

Holy shit i relate to this so much, I don't know what the fuck it is i'm doin specifically but i'm assuming it's something to do with my autism. Honestly i just want to hit the lottery so i can stay as far the fuck away from fake family an friends as possible.

 

[Gen.SchizoAfricanus]

My family has even gone out to eat together on my birthday, without me , shit was so fuckin hilarious when they came back awkwardly asking if i ate.

 

[nihilum]

my mother loves me.

 

[MajorThomas666]

N

I think some people are never happy with anything, whats the point of acting nice to you only for it to be fake???
If people will only fake liking you, its just going to hurt you more.

I think its better off sometimes never meeting people and just being alone, at least the only person judging you is yourself.

being alone is nice, I will admit.

my mother loves me.

Well, your mom also pays for you to have sex with prostitutes... kind of based