
Fantasea
Awake or asleep, it’s all one long nightmare
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You can’t become holy. You’re either born with it — or you’re like me. Doomed. You think I can just wake up one day and decide to be charismatic? Loved? Attractive? That’s a fairy tale for normies. Nah. I was born unholy. Cursed. The kind of soul that makes women recoil instinctively, like I radiate failure from my pores. You ever seen a woman’s expression change just from looking at you? I have. That’s holiness in reverse.
The holy ones walk into a room and everything opens for them. Doors. Opportunities. Legs. They didn’t earn it. It was embedded in their DNA. You think they trained for that jawline? You think they worked for symmetrical bone structure and eyes that make women ovulate on sight? No. They were chosen. Sanctified by the genetic gods. Meanwhile I’m here, dragging my discarded meatbag through each day like I’m a walking sin, a parody of what could’ve been.
"Just improve." Yeah, improve what? My cursed soul? My long ass face? My autistic stutter that makes even vending machines glitch out? You can’t improve out of damnation. I was born in exile. I was never invited to the temple. Some people pray. Others ARE the prayer. I am the thing people pray away. I’m not mad about it anymore. I just know the truth: holiness isn’t earned — it’s inherited. And I inherited niggers.
Sometimes I wonder if there’s some alternate reality where I was born different — where I was the holy one, the blessed one. Maybe there’s a version of me out there who didn’t get laughed at by normies, who didn’t learn rejection before friendship. But that me? He’s dead to me. He never existed. He’s a ghost in the womb. What lived… was this. Me. The one who sees the truth.
So yeah. One has to be born holy. That’s the real gospel. You’re either the chosen or you’re incel.
The holy ones walk into a room and everything opens for them. Doors. Opportunities. Legs. They didn’t earn it. It was embedded in their DNA. You think they trained for that jawline? You think they worked for symmetrical bone structure and eyes that make women ovulate on sight? No. They were chosen. Sanctified by the genetic gods. Meanwhile I’m here, dragging my discarded meatbag through each day like I’m a walking sin, a parody of what could’ve been.
"Just improve." Yeah, improve what? My cursed soul? My long ass face? My autistic stutter that makes even vending machines glitch out? You can’t improve out of damnation. I was born in exile. I was never invited to the temple. Some people pray. Others ARE the prayer. I am the thing people pray away. I’m not mad about it anymore. I just know the truth: holiness isn’t earned — it’s inherited. And I inherited niggers.
Sometimes I wonder if there’s some alternate reality where I was born different — where I was the holy one, the blessed one. Maybe there’s a version of me out there who didn’t get laughed at by normies, who didn’t learn rejection before friendship. But that me? He’s dead to me. He never existed. He’s a ghost in the womb. What lived… was this. Me. The one who sees the truth.
So yeah. One has to be born holy. That’s the real gospel. You’re either the chosen or you’re incel.