It's Over On May 14th, 19 days from today, I plan to take my own life.

[Plggy20144]

I just can’t do it anymore man. I’ve tried so hard, for 19 years, to just keep going and keep ignoring the outside world. I drove myself mad trying to ignore the fact that I am simply an ugly, forever alone sub 5 male, and that things will only get harder and harder for me as the days pass on. going to college recently just completely destroyed me; just seeing normal men walking around, having girlfriends, being content; the life I could never have. I’m just tired, and I wanted to open this space to any of you guys having similar thoughts about suicide or if you want to discuss this further with me. I’m just happy to talk to people without having them see my face.

 

[ddking0001]

What copes have you tried? (serious)

 

[SteelCentaur]

I just play vidya and watch movies. These days, there's enough media out there to sustain me for the rest of my natural life.

 

[cripplecel]

Brutal bro

 

[benzocel]

i tried killing myself already and almost died. now im just speedrunning life and i hope i will be dead before it gets too painful again.

 

[Plggy20144]

What copes have you tried? (serious)

everything. drugs, vidya, music, gym, lots. entertainment can only keep me distracted for so long though before I flip my phones camera to my face and get forced to confront reality.

 

[lonelysince2006]

I plan to take my life as well. Try to make peace with death and tie up any loose ends, maybe forgive people who have wronged you (or not) or apologize to people you have wronged. I won't judge anyone who takes their life. The type of people who say "it's selfish" don't realize that them saying this (to keep the other person from killing themselves/for them to stay alive) is actually more selfish because you're keeping a man who is suffering on this Earth for your own gratification and feeling like you're accomplished or something. It's pure narcissism. And people shouldn't butt into other people's lives... or death for that matter. The "it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem" argument isn't really true because inceldom is a permanent problem, and once you have tried all routes, it becomes apparent. Inceldom not only affects your sexual life (being a virgin), but also your social life (most have no friends), work life (most are NEETs, working dead-end jobs, or not working as well as they could as a symptom of their inceldom), and even family life (perhaps there is resentment for being birthed or having a rough childhood or the parents not being more attentive, etc.). "Suicide is cowardly": nothing is more brave than looking down a barrel of a gun and deciding to plunge yourself into oblivion, or looking down from a 1,000-ft bridge. It's not the "easy" way out because it's easy to just go with the flow, live, and not do anything to change your life situation. Suicide is the ultimate difficult act in a society where male loneliness is medicalized as "depression" and "patients" are given pills to change their brain and get brainwashed by professional liars (psychiatrists) to tell themselves "it's alright." Wilkes McDermid talks more indepth about all these arguments in his last post, under FAQ. I recommend you read it.

REASONS: My final blog entry… love you all…

You all probably have a lot of questions and in an ideal world I would be able to answer them all. However the risks involved in providing a ‘Q&A session’ before death is clearly to…

wilkes888.wordpress.com

 

[Emba]

See you May 15th,

 

[viniciussdc]

I just can’t do it anymore man. I’ve tried so hard, for 19 years, to just keep going and keep ignoring the outside world. I drove myself mad trying to ignore the fact that I am simply an ugly, forever alone sub 5 male, and that things will only get harder and harder for me as the days pass on. going to college recently just completely destroyed me; just seeing normal men walking around, having girlfriends, being content; the life I could never have. I’m just tired, and I wanted to open this space to any of you guys having similar thoughts about suicide or if you want to discuss this further with me. I’m just happy to talk to people without having them see my face.

Life sucks, boyo, but, believe me, it will suck less as you get older. You will give less importance to this shit.

 

[Plggy20144]

See you May 15th,

I hope not, that would mean I failed and ended up in a ward.

 

[Plggy20144]

Life sucks, boyo, but, believe me, it will suck less as you get older. You will give less importance to this shit.

shut up grey

 

[eatmyshorts2002]

I don't think anyone here can blame you fellow brocel. this world has failed us all from our friends to even our family which shows how truly fucked this world is like they say "seek help" which I'm pretty sure 99.99% of us have done or at least try to do many times but the reality is that "help" doesn't exist. I wish there was a way that we don't have to violently exit ourselves out of this world such as Euthanasia but this is the type of world that we live, a violent one. I'm sorry

 

[MoggedByALoli]

I just can’t do it anymore man. I’ve tried so hard, for 19 years, to just keep going and keep ignoring the outside world. I drove myself mad trying to ignore the fact that I am simply an ugly, forever alone sub 5 male, and that things will only get harder and harder for me as the days pass on. going to college recently just completely destroyed me; just seeing normal men walking around, having girlfriends, being content; the life I could never have. I’m just tired, and I wanted to open this space to any of you guys having similar thoughts about suicide or if you want to discuss this further with me. I’m just happy to talk to people without having them see my face.

If this is your plan, make sure that you are okay with leaving this world behind for good and that there is no going back. Just make sure that if you do this, you don't become a cripple even more grotesque than before, as that would indeed be a hellish fate.

 

[wastedcodeine]

I plan to take my life as well. Try to make peace with death and tie up any loose ends, maybe forgive people who have wronged you (or not) or apologize to people you have wronged. I won't judge anyone who takes their life. The type of people who say "it's selfish" don't realize that them saying this (to keep the other person from killing themselves/for them to stay alive) is actually more selfish because you're keeping a man who is suffering on this Earth for your own gratification and feeling like you're accomplished or something. It's pure narcissism. And people shouldn't butt into other people's lives... or death for that matter. The "it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem" argument isn't really true because inceldom is a permanent problem, and once you have tried all routes, it becomes apparent. Inceldom not only affects your sexual life (being a virgin), but also your social life (most have no friends), work life (most are NEETs, working dead-end jobs, or not working as well as they could as a symptom of their inceldom), and even family life (perhaps there is resentment for being birthed or having a rough childhood or the parents not being more attentive, etc.). "Suicide is cowardly": nothing is more brave than looking down a barrel of a gun and deciding to plunge yourself into oblivion, or looking down from a 1,000-ft bridge. It's not the "easy" way out because it's easy to just go with the flow, live, and not do anything to change your life situation. Suicide is the ultimate difficult act in a society where male loneliness is medicalized as "depression" and "patients" are given pills to change their brain and get brainwashed by professional liars (psychiatrists) to tell themselves "it's alright." Wilkes McDermid talks more indepth about all these arguments in his last post, under FAQ. I recommend you read it.

REASONS: My final blog entry… love you all…

You all probably have a lot of questions and in an ideal world I would be able to answer them all. However the risks involved in providing a ‘Q&A session’ before death is clearly to…

wilkes888.wordpress.com

That blog post was a really good read

 

[Antifem Lord]

I gave up already

 

[Plggy20144]

If this is your plan, make sure that you are okay with leaving this world behind for good and that there is no going back. Just make sure that if you do this, you don't become a cripple even more grotesque than before, as that would indeed be a hellish fate.

using SN so I should be able to CTB successfully

 

[turbosperg]

I just can’t do it anymore man. I’ve tried so hard, for 19 years, to just keep going and keep ignoring the outside world. I drove myself mad trying to ignore the fact that I am simply an ugly, forever alone sub 5 male, and that things will only get harder and harder for me as the days pass on. going to college recently just completely destroyed me; just seeing normal men walking around, having girlfriends, being content; the life I could never have. I’m just tired, and I wanted to open this space to any of you guys having similar thoughts about suicide or if you want to discuss this further with me. I’m just happy to talk to people without having them see my face.

Why don't you just collegemaxx
Remotejobmaxx
And
SEAmaxx?

Serious question.

 

[Plggy20144]

I don't think anyone here can blame you fellow brocel. this world has failed us all from our friends to even our family which shows how truly fucked this world is like they say "seek help" which I'm pretty sure 99.99% of us have done or at least try to do many times but the reality is that "help" doesn't exist. I wish there was a way that we don't have to violently exit ourselves out of this world such as Euthanasia but this is the type of world that we live, a violent one. I'm sorry

tell me about it, I tried everything. gym, therapy, you name it, I just can’t keep running from the fact that I’m sub-5 and my suffering is only going to get worse from here on out. It’s just easier and makes more sense to die now and hope I either live in oblivion the rest of my life or get reincarnated as a normie White guy.

 

[Plggy20144]

Why don't you just collegemaxx
Remotejobmaxx
And
SEAmaxx?

Serious question.

because I hate my appearance that much and I don’t want to live as a sub-5 anymore.

 

[Chudwaffen]

Brutal. I wish I had the courage to rope but I'm too neurotic to do so

 

[Plggy20144]

Brutal. I wish I had the courage to rope but I'm too neurotic to do so

it’s at most 30 minutes of fear in exchange for ending your decades of suffering. I think it’s a pretty good trade.

 

[Logic55]

I just play vidya and watch movies. These days, there's enough media out there to sustain me for the rest of my natural life.

Have you watched the Last Samurai?

 

[NotTheElliot]

I just can’t do it anymore man. I’ve tried so hard, for 19 years, to just keep going and keep ignoring the outside world. I drove myself mad trying to ignore the fact that I am simply an ugly, forever alone sub 5 male, and that things will only get harder and harder for me as the days pass on. going to college recently just completely destroyed me; just seeing normal men walking around, having girlfriends, being content; the life I could never have. I’m just tired, and I wanted to open this space to any of you guys having similar thoughts about suicide or if you want to discuss this further with me. I’m just happy to talk to people without having them see my face.

Are you in college like ER was? That's still pretty young.

 

[MoggedByALoli]

"Suicide is cowardly": nothing is more brave than looking down a barrel of a gun and deciding to plunge yourself into oblivion, or looking down from a 1,000-ft bridge. It's not the "easy" way out because it's easy to just go with the flow, live, and not do anything to change your life situation. Suicide is the ultimate difficult act in a society where male loneliness is medicalized as "depression" and "patients" are given pills to change their brain and get brainwashed by professional liars (psychiatrists) to tell themselves "it's alright." Wilkes McDermid talks more indepth about all these arguments in his last post, under FAQ. I recommend you read it.

This isn't a joke, but as @wastedcodeine said above, it's a good post. You remind me of Subaru's speech about how he hated himself as well as the whole male conditioning in the modern world, which is turning us all into obedient, mindless slaves incapable of even replicating the
most basic features of masculinity.

It's a shame that this world drives people into this act, but it seems that's one of the few reasonable options in an unreasonable world. I can't say you or OP should, but as Wilkes McDermid noted in his blog post, it's up to us to make our own choices, especially regarding this crucial matter. Do we keep on coping and slugging through life for another x amount of years, or do I finally pull the plug and say fuck it?

All I know is that in a better world, people would never have to think about this, let alone act on it. This world is cruel, but sometimes, it can be genuinely beautiful and worth living in. But it's not for us genetically inferior subhuman males.

 

[Linky Love]

NGL the suicide option is looking better and better all the time.

Though with any luck my numerous health issues will take me out the game hopefully painlessly soon enough.

I hope that if you go through with it OP you’re able to find a relatively painless method.

Good luck.

 

[NotTheElliot]

Are you in college like ER was? That's still pretty young.

Are you working?

 

[viniciussdc]

shut up grey

But it’s true, boyo. I can tell you it’s true from the old age of 24.

 

[Minamoto]

I plan to take my life as well. Try to make peace with death and tie up any loose ends, maybe forgive people who have wronged you (or not) or apologize to people you have wronged. I won't judge anyone who takes their life. The type of people who say "it's selfish" don't realize that them saying this (to keep the other person from killing themselves/for them to stay alive) is actually more selfish because you're keeping a man who is suffering on this Earth for your own gratification and feeling like you're accomplished or something. It's pure narcissism. And people shouldn't butt into other people's lives... or death for that matter. The "it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem" argument isn't really true because inceldom is a permanent problem, and once you have tried all routes, it becomes apparent. Inceldom not only affects your sexual life (being a virgin), but also your social life (most have no friends), work life (most are NEETs, working dead-end jobs, or not working as well as they could as a symptom of their inceldom), and even family life (perhaps there is resentment for being birthed or having a rough childhood or the parents not being more attentive, etc.). "Suicide is cowardly": nothing is more brave than looking down a barrel of a gun and deciding to plunge yourself into oblivion, or looking down from a 1,000-ft bridge. It's not the "easy" way out because it's easy to just go with the flow, live, and not do anything to change your life situation. Suicide is the ultimate difficult act in a society where male loneliness is medicalized as "depression" and "patients" are given pills to change their brain and get brainwashed by professional liars (psychiatrists) to tell themselves "it's alright." Wilkes McDermid talks more indepth about all these arguments in his last post, under FAQ. I recommend you read it.

REASONS: My final blog entry… love you all…

You all probably have a lot of questions and in an ideal world I would be able to answer them all. However the risks involved in providing a ‘Q&A session’ before death is clearly to…

wilkes888.wordpress.com

Perfectly said. I want to add as well that in addition to being put on pharmajewtical slop garbage, psykikatrists will also never fail to hammer in your head how "it's all your fault" "you're not trying" and "you dont want to get better, you just want to complain", despite clear and demonstrable evidence to the contrary. Sometimes they say this garbage out of hand, before you even had a chance to even speak about your life. I guess it's no wonder most people who end up dying by suicide "sought help" beforehand.

And yeah, suicide is one of the bravest things you can do. It takes so much willpower and courage to override your most basic, primordial instinct of survival. Truly a testament to how much pain these people were in. But I'm sure some 80 iq cocksucker will insist it was all their fault or they'll go to hell, lmao.

But yeah, I don't know man. This world is fucking fallen and normies are evil. I don't judge anyone for roping either. I guess I'd just say to the OP maybe try a bit more since you're young. You still have some potential. But I don't know your entire life story. This is just sorta general advice.

Thank you for linking to Wilkes Mcdermid's blog btw. It's been a while since I've last read it. Always a good read. The dude literally blackpilled himself.

 

[SteelCentaur]

Have you watched the Last Samurai?

I haven't watched it yet, but I've heard it mentioned before.

 

[Plggy20144]

Are you in college like ER was? That's still pretty young.

yes. want to see if I can get my hands on what I need for my method in time, hopefully I can. if not, I’ll have to postpone. SN is super hard to acquire nowadays.

Are you working?

no

 

[lonelysince2006]

If this is your plan, make sure that you are okay with leaving this world behind for good and that there is no going back. Just make sure that if you do this, you don't become a cripple even more grotesque than before, as that would indeed be a hellish fate.

I'm sure of both.

Thank you for linking to Wilkes Mcdermid's blog btw.

No problem.

 

[Electus]

On one hand it's weird seeing someone at 19 being so suicidal. On the other hand, if you're a trucel with no hope of ascending or having a decent life... Idk what to say man. If you don't have money or the ability to go innawoods I guess death is the preferred option. Your 30 or even 25 year old self would most likely tell you to do it.

 

[braindmgedsleepycel]

but think about how much porn and vidya and tendies you will miss out on

 

[NotTheElliot]

The next ER anniversary is on May 23. Surely you can stick around until then The memes on here will be worth seeing. I'll definitely be online then.

 

[MoggedByALoli]

I'm sure of both.

No problem.

Sorry to hear that. I won't say suicide is immoral or cowardly like a normie, but it is unfortunate, however. As I've said before, in a better world, this shit wouldn't even be necessary. Only in a world like this is it even a common occurrence. But we can't have eugenics because NAZIS! Such bullshit; imagine producing more children with shitty genetics because it's "Nazi-like" not to do so. Fuck this world.

 

[qplein]

idk why people are asking for the copes he tried like whats left to try after 19ys of trying, its truly sad
but u can moneymaxx u wont have true love but its better than nothing

 

[Nemesis]

See you in hell, I'll join you some day too

 

[Puer aeternus]

i never support roping, it utterly useless.

 

[NotTheElliot]

i never support roping, it utterly useless.

 

[Puer aeternus]

I hope not, that would mean I failed and ended up in a ward.

would you be up to chat somewhere? if you want to suicide, then i wont judge, im just curious

 

[edgelordcel]

Y 14th

 

[Plggy20144]

would you be up to chat somewhere? if you want to suicide, then i wont judge, im just curious

sure

 

[Plggy20144]

Y 14th

im supposed to go to a concert that day.

 

[Plggy20144]

Y 14th

im supposed to go to a concert that day.

 

[DeathIsSalvation]

im supposed to go to a concert that day.

brutal

 

[Balding Subhuman]

Depression can go away. I'm not saying we can't get all the things we want from life but then again that applies to everyone.

 

[DeathIsSalvation]

im supposed to go to a concert that d

im supposed to go to a concert that day.

Listen man, I don't know what your life situation and no one here has probably walked a mile in your shoes but I think you should wait a little longer at least. You never know what you could experience in life. Shit can be so unexpected.

 

[KetamineAddictYoda]

I regularly consider it, so it's difficult to dissuade someone that's decided upon it. Remember that, as far as you know, you have only one life. Perhaps it is better to experience it, even if it's not the best.

 

[Plggy20144]

Listen man, I don't know what your life situation and no one here has probably walked a mile in your shoes but I think you should wait a little longer at least. You never know what you could experience in life. Shit can be so unexpected.

if I was meant to not take my life, something will go wrong. I’ve placed an order for the materials I need to end my life. If I was truly meant to fail, the order will get cancelled, someone will intercept it and stop me, something will prevent me from going through with it. If it does, I’ll postpone it since my plan B is just shooting myself in the head with a shotgun, which will require quite a bit of money to get. If you’re wondering, I’m using the SN method, and SN is a pain in the ass to get nowadays, with the special conditions sellers require you to meet in order to acquire it and all. I already had my previous order cancelled, so I want to see how this one goes.

 

[AsiaCel]

Don't do it. Do something else