I tried to organize my life by writing down my plans for life etc on a notebook and... i noticed one of the only few aspirations was becoming a high status member on this site..then i realized how over it is.
I didnt want any real life goals, like education job or family (these didnt even cross my mind), just to be a quality poster here. And this i didnt even want much, but its one of the only that came to mind. Im not good ot have aspirations for anything else. For months ive been alone in my room coping and using drugs and lost, abandoned by society, trying to figure things on my own but the only thing it did is further alienate me, but now i will have to inteact with normies and it will be painfuly difficult. Those that care for me think im doing fine, they are my family, but its not their fault but the historical situation we find ourselves in i guess.
I didnt want any real life goals, like education job or family (these didnt even cross my mind), just to be a quality poster here. And this i didnt even want much, but its one of the only that came to mind. Im not good ot have aspirations for anything else. For months ive been alone in my room coping and using drugs and lost, abandoned by society, trying to figure things on my own but the only thing it did is further alienate me, but now i will have to inteact with normies and it will be painfuly difficult. Those that care for me think im doing fine, they are my family, but its not their fault but the historical situation we find ourselves in i guess.
