It's Over [Oldcel trait] you go to bed early

[littlemanhikicel]

Im going to sleep this pasts weeks to even ten o clock when I ussually manage to go to bed when the sun raises again. Or more or less 4am,5am. And now I start to go to bed even before my mom who watch tv, hear radio and ussually go before me at 1am.

Its like my energy is drawning but the good thing is I have more energy in the morning and ussually don't need "la siesta" in the middle day hour.

 

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meds unc

 

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Im going to sleep this pasts weeks to even ten o clock when I ussually manage to go to bed when the sun raises again. Or more or less 4am,5am. And now I start to go to bed even before my mom who watch tv, hear radio and ussually go before me at 1am.

Its like my energy is drawning but the good thing is I have more energy in the morning and ussually don't need "la siesta" in the middle day hour.

How havent you killed yourself yet

I am 29 and no way Im making it past 30 with no pussy

 

[wereq]

How havent you killed yourself yet

Same way that other oldcels here like you and me haven't killed themselves yet. Its called survival instinct.

 

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Same way that other oldcels here like you and me haven't killed themselves yet. Its called survival instinct.

im offing myself before 23 hopefully but maybe SI wont let me do it thats why my plan is it keep being risky asf with heroin and other drugs and hopefully OD like i did in 2022

 

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Same way that other oldcels here like you and me haven't killed themselves yet. Its called survival instinct.

I have a way out planned already in case I fail to ascend soon. Just rotting ur life in a room or wage slavic to survive is the most boring shit ever Im not doing that for another 20/30+ years JFL no thanks.

If I was rich maybe I would be copemaxxing but im not so...

 

[wereq]

im offing myself before 23 hopefully but maybe SI wont let me do it thats why my plan is it keep being risky asf with heroin and other drugs and hopefully OD like i did in 2022

How will you get heroin?

 

[wereq]

I have a way out planned already in case I fail to ascend soon

Having a way out and going through with it are two different things.

 

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How will you get heroin?

my j&k friends will get it for me

 

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Having a way out and going through with it are two different things.

Yes

That is why you pre-condition yourself with drugs before you're about to do it.

 

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Yes

That is why you pre-condition yourself with drugs before you're about to do it.

this is why you choose a method like pharmaceutical fentanyl, just get high and the chances are u will probably die too tahts what i did in 2022, i put fent patches on my gums got high and then almost died and would have died 100% if not for my retard uncle who narcaned me back to life

 

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this is why you choose a method like pharmaceutical fentanyl, just get high and the chances are u will probably die too tahts what i did in 2022, i put fent patches on my gums got high and then almost died and would have died 100% if not for my retard uncle who narcaned me back to life

I almost died when I ODied as well once, on cocaine, I took so many lines as my first try and drank alcohol. When I was coming down I didn't measure my heart beat but I could feel my fucking heart was about to explode I couldn't sleep all night and I constantly struggled with pressure and felt I was about to pass out, shit was fucking scary. I had to physically focus on not dying and passing out and regulating my body and had to 24/7 control my breathing just to stay awake. I knew if I passed out I would die, idk how to explain it but I just knew that my body would die if I didn't control it manually and I was on the verge of passing out all night.

I'm never ODing drugs that mess with your stats like that again, horrible way to die I conclude.

Just mild dosages before you use other methods. Mild dose on drugs to prep yourself mentally to off yourself then either CO2maxx with cut consciousness through sleeping pills or other methods but def don't OD on drugs as ur death method. Also CO2maxxing you HAVE to make sure it will be successful, if you fail you can fuck up your brain and be a tomato for the rest of your life and forced to live in a braindead state for the next 30+ years.

 

[RechargedSamsung]

I wish i could have a sleep schedule like yours it seems cool but my young dumb brain like to stay up earlier i still seem to have the energy to pull all nighters lol

 

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I almost died when I ODied as well once, on cocaine, I took so many lines as my first try and drank alcohol. When I was coming down I didn't measure my heart beat but I could feel my fucking heart was about to explode I couldn't sleep all night and I constantly struggled with pressure and felt I was about to pass out, shit was fucking scary. I had to physically focus on not dying and passing out and regulating my body and had to 24/7 control my breathing just to stay awake. I knew if I passed out I would die, idk how to explain it but I just knew that my body would die if I didn't control it manually and I was on the verge of passing out all night.

I'm never ODing drugs that mess with your stats like that again, horrible way to die I conclude.

Just mild dosages before you use other methods. Mild dose on drugs to prep yourself mentally to off yourself then either CO2maxx with cut consciousness through sleeping pills or other methods but def don't OD on drugs as ur death method. Also CO2maxxing you HAVE to make sure it will be successful, if you fail you can fuck up your brain and be a tomato for the rest of your life and forced to live in a braindead state for the next 30+ years.

thats because you oded on a stim bro jfl i did in on fent which is an opioid so it was the most peaceful shit ever imo its the best way to die after nembutal

 

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thats because you oded on a stim bro jfl i did in on fent which is an opioid so it was the most peaceful shit ever imo its the best way to die after nembutal

I never tried Fent. I know they use it in surgeries when I was researching general anesthetic they put that shit into it so yeah I need to look int it omore.

 

[littlemanhikicel]

I wish i could have a sleep schedule like yours it seems cool but my young dumb brain like to stay up earlier i still seem to have the energy to pull all nighters lol

When you are young you cope more and better. Im old and with low energy.

 

[RechargedSamsung]

When you are young you cope more and better. Im old and with low energy.

i cant really cope as much as i used too when i was 14 i remember like it was just easy to escape for a but watching anime and playing games and now they just ran its course the only way i can feel that “escape” feeling again is with alcohol or weed sadly