Venting OCD has managed to screw up most of this year for me

[nakolas]

6 months ago to date February 4th 2025 was when my OCD intrusive thoughts became a relentless tormenting pain I can't escape unless I'm asleep. Everyday since then I have had to listen to what these thoughts tell me to do like a slave. I can't go on the websites I want to when I want to without this stupid disorder telling me "No, go on YouTube instead of .is, something bad will happen if you don't listen" and like the slave I am, I give in, because if you have OCD, you understand how HARD it really is to ignore it, OCD will pick out your worst fears, which is why it's so hard to ignore it. I'm so sick of being a slave to my OCD but it's not going to get better and I'm too much of a coward to fight it and ignore it.

TLDR; Screw OCD, it's such an asshole.

 

[andreww]

i can relate to this, dude. it’s hard to reach out for help but you should genuinely try. you won’t forever be tormented by these thoughts

 

[Leon98]

Story of my life.

 

[Runt171]

Just ignore it bro

 

[Hoppipolla]

Mine was really really bad back in 2017.

Somehow I managed to get a BIT more of a handle on it since then. It depends. If it's something that I can easily repeat and I'm all alone... like for example something on the computer or my phone... I give in more. But if I'm out and about or on an online game or somewhere else where repeating things would look really odd and be very inconveniencing (I'd have to physically go back to where I was, etc) then I can typically overcome it.

 

[poorenglishcel]

I have some undiagnosed OCDish(not exactly OCD) mental issues as well which makes my life unbearable often

 

[D.R.]

Kind of the same situation, because I moved to a different place in february, my OCD is a lot about emotional/mental contamination, the idea that certain thoughts/emotions get stuck in me or contaminate/ruin objects, events, etc by association, so one situation where this always pops up is when I take photographs - if I have the wrong thought/feeling in that moment when I hit the button to snap the picture, I feel like I'm stuck with it now, I have to delete it and take it again, etc, shit like that.

That added stress of moving and it being the first picture in that house if I were to take one (which made me shy away from taking any pictures at all for months) has made the obsession and fear of getting it wrong worse, I engaged in too much avoidance behavior.