No sarcasm.
I was already severely depressed the year before Corona because I had studied looks theories thoroughly and come to the conclusion that it was over for me. Most lightings outside of my flat made me look uglier than I thought. Then came the virus and I never went out again without a mask. It covered my dirty skin and subhuman lower third and made my eye area look more compact. For 3 years I could go outside without too much anxiety.
Now I have to see my ugly face again in public mirrors and window reflections, realizing how much I get mogged by almost everyone, and that the looksmaxxing I did during the Covid years were completely futile. It’s becoming so depressing that I can’t enjoy the things I used to love like sitting in a cafe reading history books. Instead I feel dizzy and just want to escape. I wonder how long I could still hold out this way before killing myself, kek
I was already severely depressed the year before Corona because I had studied looks theories thoroughly and come to the conclusion that it was over for me. Most lightings outside of my flat made me look uglier than I thought. Then came the virus and I never went out again without a mask. It covered my dirty skin and subhuman lower third and made my eye area look more compact. For 3 years I could go outside without too much anxiety.
Now I have to see my ugly face again in public mirrors and window reflections, realizing how much I get mogged by almost everyone, and that the looksmaxxing I did during the Covid years were completely futile. It’s becoming so depressing that I can’t enjoy the things I used to love like sitting in a cafe reading history books. Instead I feel dizzy and just want to escape. I wonder how long I could still hold out this way before killing myself, kek
