Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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To give some context: we were talking about work, and I said how hard and exhausting I think it is. And he thought I meant physically, told me I should take some walks to toughen up physically. Then I explained that it's mainly the psychological exhaustion that would affect me more. And he told me "you should go to work with a smile on your face, laugh about it, it's so easy. Just relax and be happy at work, it's easy and you should enjoy it".
This honestly kinda shattered my worldview. I don't understand. I just don't understand how other people think. How can they think like this, its the exact opposite of my mentality.
It never even crossed his mind how difficult work actually is. He literally believed what he was saying. For me work would be hell for so many reasons, I can't even remember them all. I literally dread it as I would a terminal disease. I'm several months away from having to get a job and I'm already kinda stressed about it. And it's not just cause I hate being around people, anxiety and all that. I hate work itself. How it's many hours of doing boring tasks, how meaningless it is, how awfully compensated you are. Hours and hours of boring tasks after which you are exhausted, you come home tired and watch tv a few hours and then you gotta do it again, day after day after day. Till you die. Meaningless boring shit. Surrounded by people that make me anxious. And there's several other factors too that make me hate it even more.
The farther from neurotypical are the more you will suffer. Every area my life is affected by not being neurotypical. I hated school like poison, I'll hate work like it's literal slavery. I have no girlfriend, I never had friends cause it socializing makes me anxious and I avoid people like the plague.
This honestly kinda shattered my worldview. I don't understand. I just don't understand how other people think. How can they think like this, its the exact opposite of my mentality.
It never even crossed his mind how difficult work actually is. He literally believed what he was saying. For me work would be hell for so many reasons, I can't even remember them all. I literally dread it as I would a terminal disease. I'm several months away from having to get a job and I'm already kinda stressed about it. And it's not just cause I hate being around people, anxiety and all that. I hate work itself. How it's many hours of doing boring tasks, how meaningless it is, how awfully compensated you are. Hours and hours of boring tasks after which you are exhausted, you come home tired and watch tv a few hours and then you gotta do it again, day after day after day. Till you die. Meaningless boring shit. Surrounded by people that make me anxious. And there's several other factors too that make me hate it even more.
The farther from neurotypical are the more you will suffer. Every area my life is affected by not being neurotypical. I hated school like poison, I'll hate work like it's literal slavery. I have no girlfriend, I never had friends cause it socializing makes me anxious and I avoid people like the plague.