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There was a moment in my teenage years where my hormones spiked and I used to feel violent sexual urges; this mostly subsided with porn. But ever since I got past 18 I have lost this drive and when I see any woman I feel barely any attraction, I have not touched myself for years seeing them or thinking about them either. Instead, violent hatred stirs on me.
I also have stopped lamenting the fact I will never be loved, or any other self pitying behavior on the topic of women. Everything has been replaced by a black hate. I feel nothing but disgust for whores and sluts, and the walking holes arouse me no more.
In part I think it is good, watching porn is nothing but cuck behavior; so is losing yourself in fantasy. But the resentful blackness growing in my heart seems to be doing more harm: destroying me completely.
I also have stopped lamenting the fact I will never be loved, or any other self pitying behavior on the topic of women. Everything has been replaced by a black hate. I feel nothing but disgust for whores and sluts, and the walking holes arouse me no more.
In part I think it is good, watching porn is nothing but cuck behavior; so is losing yourself in fantasy. But the resentful blackness growing in my heart seems to be doing more harm: destroying me completely.






