View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dmpvmdHyw-s
The experience of simply walking around with your girlfriend is something that comes with the basic package of life. Or going out with friends on a night out.
I too tortured myself watching 'normie life' videos for a long time before. It was BIGGEST SUICIDE FUEL I have seen in my entire life. Just watching 'couples-youtube-channels' where they do their daily life shit. It's so fucking soul crashing. Knowing just how fucked my life is. How fucking much of a lonely person I am. How starved for any affection I am. I do not even COMPREHEND how to exist in a society like this.
It is just so fucked watching videos like this as an oldcel, knowing your life never looked like that. Instead spend in a lonely room because every time you go outside you were met with rejection and pain. Tortured mentally every fucking day of your life. I never lived a life. I am in a genetic prison.
I watched so many of those videos from different countries, seeing people just go around their business, being happy, together, with lots of friends. My only friends left is an autistic latviancel NEET who hasnt had a job for 28 years of his life and lives with his mum and another cel who is probably still bluepilled. This are my only 2 real life friends that I feel comfortable talking with. And its online because they live too far to meet them now. This is the extend of my 'friendship circle' jfl....
Meanwhile normies meet up at bars every day, have hobbies, talk and laugh... Like it's so fucking alien to me. I never had any fucking real friends I dont know how to talk to people, If I went to a bar I wouldnt know how to behave. Every time I am around normies I try to mimick their behaviour I try to fit in but its so exausting because thats not the real me. At best they just ignore me and dont notice me much. At worst they exclude me.
Life is just very painful for me to be honest. I don't know what to say. I really question what is the point of living like that? I am forced to write on this nigger forum. Being watched by a bunch of trannies and niggers bluepillers who treat it like a circus even though they are even in a worse situation than me jfl, surrounded by fakecels and larpers. I don't know why niggers want to come here so hard to this forum, stupid cunts you think its a privvalage to be here?
YOU THINK I LIKE BEING HERE AND BEING BLACKPILLED?
I WOULD RATHER BE BLUEPUILLED AND LIVE A HAPPY FUCKING LIFE BUT THATS NOT FUCKING POSSIBLE BECAUSE I GOT A SUBHUMAN FACE AND THE LIFE ITSELF HAS LEAD ME HERE....
LIFE ITSELF HAS BLACKPILLED ME
NOT INCELS
NOBODY INDOCTRINATED ME INTO SHIT
LIFE
LIFE DID IT
EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN MY EARLY AGE WHEN I WAS 22 I BECAME BLACKPILLED FINALLY AFTER BREAKING DOWN AND CRYING ON THE FLOOR FOR FUCKING DAYS...
I LITERALLY STAYED IN MY HOUSE FOR 2 DAYS AND WEPT SILENTLY ON THE FLOOR THE PAIN IN MY CHEST WAS PIERCING SO FUCKING HARD BECAUSE I CRIED SILENTLY NOT TO ALERT MY NEIGHBOURS (THEY PROBABLY WOULDNT GIVE A SHIT ANYWAY BUT I WAS EMBARRASSED) AFTER THAT I FINALLY DECIDED TO SEARCH FOR ANSWERS TO THIS AND THATS HOW I DISCOVERED BLACKPILL AND IT ALL MADE SENSE...
WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME
WHY CANT I HAVE FUCKING HAPPY LIFE WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER ALL MY LIFE FOR WHAT? WHAT DID I FUCKING DO? WHAT DID I DO EVERY I WENT IN LIFE I GOT SHIT ON EVERYWHERE I GOT FUCKING BULLIED AND HUMILIALATED ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE ITS JUST FUCKING DISGUSTING THAT PEOPLE ARE TREATED LIKE THIS FOR NO FAULT OF THEIR OWN
AND THEN THIS NIGGERS SPEAK OF VIRTUE OR HOW I NEED TO CHANGE MY PERSONALITY OR TKAE SHOWERS SHUT THE FUCK UP ILLF UCKING GHEBEAHD YOU IS WEART TO GOD IF SOME MTOEHRFUCKER ASIFD THIS TO ME IN REAL LIFE I WIOULD BEHEAD I WOULD PUT MY FUCKING HANDS IN HIS EY ESOCKERTS PUNCHED IT IN I WOULD PUNCH MY HANDS INTO SUFKCING THINGERES EYE SOCKETS IA M IN PRISON IA M INH ELL FUCK THIS WORLD ITS MASSIVE WSCAMMMMMMMMMASDF
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